a truth  

paulabear1 43F
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7/20/2005 7:06 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

a truth


in the dead of night i think of you.
i think of thoughts not quite pure.
sometimes i think if i leave the door open you will come for me.
or maybe someone will.
i lie awake thinking of things we would do.
and close my eyes hoping for it to come true.
i want to feel a hand on my thigh.
i want to feel lips and teeth on my skin.
but i know that will not happen.
i know it will not happen.
remembering the feeling of it .
its almost true.
its almost right but not quite.
i have a need i have to have filled.
i have a want that needs to be met.
but it will not happen.
it will not happen.
i can feel it close.
i can sense it nearby.
who are you ?
who am i ?
lying in my bed.
waiting for you in my bed.
waiting for him in my bed.
i cant sleep.
i cant dream.
it wont let me.
you wont let me.
i wont let me.
it is a pressure building in me.
when it is released i fear it.
but it will not happen.
it will not happen.
it is deep inside me.
this is primal.
it is deep in you.
it is our nature.
except yours is pure where mine is not.
the darkness is there comforting .
if i told you it would scare you.
so i cant say anything.
i just wait for it.
but it will not happen.
it will not happen.

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