fucking whatever  

onthefence3 35F
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10/12/2005 7:05 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

fucking whatever


so......this is my second pos since i got home from work....lamer i know...nothing better to do then sit here after the small one goes to sleep andtype on the computer...but yeah ... so she stopped by tonight....acting as if nothing was wrong. and also like nothing other than friendship has ever been between us....for like 5 mins...then she was trying to lay next to me on the couch and play with my hair and all the other intimate stuff that we do to each other to get the other's attention...i don't know what the hell is wrong with her...why can't she just be normal and accept the fact tht she's in love with a girl and no matter how hard she tries she can't change the fact that she's sooo not straight....why does she play the mind fuck games??? i thought that i'd graduated high school and we were so over that bullshit by now... it frustrates me..because as i've said in the last few posts..i've tried to back off and give her what she says she wants...i don't kiss her, i don't tell her that i love her anymore, and i don't ask her to come and stay the night anymore either.....but just when i think that she's made up her mind that she really does only want to be friends she shows up here....groping me , pinching my ass, and biting my neck WTF is up ??? and why does she think that it's still ok to do those things when she'sthe one who said that she doesn't want to be with me physically anymore??? and why if that's the truth does she call me and text me on the comp talking dirty and come over here and do all that...asks to take baths with me or showers or what have you??? and why can't i just drop her??? oh yea because she's beautiful, i still love her, and i want her to come and spend every night here in my bed with me......... i need to just kick myself in the ass and walk awy......HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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