Now what?  

nstantkarma 57M
89 posts
4/26/2006 6:40 pm

Last Read:
4/29/2006 6:59 am

Now what?

My mind must be playing tricks on me.
I know that was you on the bar stool.
Sitting next to me and laying your head
on my shoulder while you laughed.

Look at you, all beautiful and you want to step away. Old ways suck. Common sense sucks.
Ever since the first time you hugged me, I was lost. Your perfume and the softness of your waist make my knees want to buckle.

Look me in the eye and tell me you don't feel the same. We never stop laughing when we are together.
I could hold you forever and never need to remove my clothes. Please don't go...

You made me look inside. Made me feel. Sometimes the rules don't apply to happiness. I was raised in a different world. You never had such thoughts, much less acted on them. What would others think? Those old ways still lurk. I see the looks others give us in public. I also see the eyes of the men as they follow you as you walk. I see the lust in their eyes. They don't know you are even nicer than you are beautiful.

I was ready. I know I couldn't halfway date you. It was all or nothing. You are too good to me to be a secret and it wouldn't be right or fair to you. My family, my friends, I was ready. I believe sometimes miracles do hide. Who says happiness has one game plan? Fuck.....

Now, you want to pull back. Tell me it's because I'm old or ugly. Tell me I'm not good enough for you. Tell me there is another man. Just don't tell me it's because you're scared. Don't be all common sense and say what if it doesn't work?

I'm scared. I can admit it. I have a million what if's in my head. The biggest one is what if it could work, but we never tried. What if I never get to taste just one kiss from your lips? What if the people at work figure it out? What if our families were to freak out?

All of that..yet I can't stop thinking of you. Please don't go just yet. Room to think and breathe, but leave the door open a crack. One of us may need to get back through it.....

rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
4/26/2006 7:36 pm

Sigh, that is beautiful and so sad.....

ArgosPlumyKooky 45F
3902 posts
4/26/2006 7:44 pm

half way is hard to do. . . .very hard to do

LustGoddess2469 49F  
2453 posts
4/26/2006 7:46 pm

Absolutely beautiful. I hope that door gets passed through.


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