serious blog today-my thoughts....  

nshift8 40F
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4/17/2006 9:26 pm

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5/20/2006 11:18 pm

serious blog today-my thoughts....

1. I just realized how much I can not stand being called cutie or babe or anything when I do not even have any idea who the person is. If I meet them or they are old friends, then I do no mind at all, but friends I have not met yet, and those I will not meet, well different story.

2. Why do I always turn guys into friends? Why is it I can never get past that into something more? What am I holding back? Why am I so ...whatever I am being?

3. I finally meet a guy I like and so forth and I let my body talk, and not my mind/heart. What a goofish thing to do! Thank goodness he was awesome enough to kindly put me in my place. He was awesome. Just told me "you're cool and I like that-don't want to ruin it." Or something to that affect. I feel so much better. Free and relieved. He is awesome. What was I thinking? I almost ruined a good (if new) friendship.

4. I have realized I am not lonely anymore. I don't "need" someone in my life, and I am enjoying dating. I wish I had known about this earlier. I don't want to jump into relationships anymore. Wow, that is huge for me. Total new realization. It is fun to date and not feel beholden to anyone. I truly am enjoying it! Wow. It kind of hit me like a ton of bricks.

Thanks for listening!

ut_heathen 42M

5/1/2006 1:01 am

Good for you! That is a great realization. Best wishes.


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