What are the odds?  

noordinarychic2 48F
510 posts
3/13/2006 8:14 am

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3/13/2006 10:36 am

What are the odds?


Ok...so what are the odds that I have found that magic combination....now I don't know about the sparks just yet...first date is tomorrow....but its funny .....we're both a little giddy over it....both of us...and he....isn't shy about telling me...i'm more embarrassed to tell him....I keep wanting to be this cool, calm collected chic when inside i'm giddy happy and get this little silly smile everytime my phone rings....and every time I think about him....and he just amazes me....now of course the skeptical side is well evident....you know that old saying..."if it looks to good to be true, it usually is"...but wouldn't it be amazing if he was all of it and more???? what are the odds???
On a different note....I'm starting to let go of the past....of that one memory that haunts me... that one person whom i loved so desparately but hurt me more then any other....that person that i've tried so hard to hold onto.....even in a friend capacity....but little by little I see more and more that trying to maintain a close friendship with someone you once loved is more work then necessary at times.......its like purposefully moving yourself backwards in time....as much as you'd like to think you can handle it....or i think i can handle it...its time to really move on....to not just give it lip service but to really move on.....a part of me is scared to do that though.....he's been my safety net for so long...the person i called in the middle of the night...the person i had cuddle me when no one else could....who knows more then any other...that has been there all along...who's celebrated the good times and dried my tears in the bad....footnote here....most of those tears.... he caused...and that's the irony of it all.....the man i consider my best friend has also been my biggest heartbreak.....but its time to really move on......
time to let go of the blanket....time to stop hiding behind a friendship that is at once the healing and the hurting....time to start building something new.....and to begin at the beginning.....and not cling to the past with such blinded tenacity! Here's to my future...no here's to tomorrow.....what will i do if he is all of it and more???

sassybelle21 32F
13313 posts
3/13/2006 9:17 am

I will hold your hand if you want me to Just let go and have fun.


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