There's Something About A Man  

noordinarychic2 48F
510 posts
2/20/2006 9:20 pm

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There's Something About A Man

There's something about a man's touch........and missing it more then you should. Why is it that i can't just throw caution to the wind and accept with gusto the next offer i have ? Am i hell bent on seeing just how horny a girl can get before she says "fuck this relationship crap.... i just wanna get laid?" What am I so scared of? I'm scared that like the last time, my heart will eventually get involved and i'll end up picking up its pieces.... that's what i'm scared of.....


2/20/2006 10:02 pm

I really don't think it's that much of a conscious and deliberate choice once you are ready for something new. I think it sort of falls into place when it's ready to nearly on it's own. I think it has somethng to do with having whatever the lessons really were about the last relationship reeally sink in good at a deep level. Then things are pretty well ready and set for something new.

And I don't think those lessons are ever really that you should not open your heart again. That's just the easy default thing to think that actually keeps you from more fully absorbing what your lessons really were.

In my own case I think those lesson mostly have to do with how I (through my own beliefs and attitudes) create the romantic situations (and the problems having to do with them) that I get myself into.

The easiest way to get out of really learning that stuff is to place blame on the the other party involved. Doing that is one of the things that keeps you blind and makes you continue to have to make the same stupid mistakes over and over again.

Anyways I find myself in a similar boat to your own but have certainly come quite a ways in coming to terms with realizing my own role in the creation of the last effort. But not so worried now about when the next one comes along as it will happen quite easily when things are ready and ripe for the picking.

And I can sense the ripening.


LustyTaurus 48M  
21253 posts
2/20/2006 10:27 pm

Face your fears Noordinarychic2...head-on...really, start with head, you're in controll at that point!

Seriously, is your brain all full of "I shouldn't do that? or I should do this?" Shut off the chatter and go with your instincts...your real'll be happier!

That's my 2 cents.


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