I Fell Off the Wagon  

noordinarychic2 48F
510 posts
6/22/2006 6:23 am

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6/22/2006 7:02 pm

I Fell Off the Wagon

Well....it happened .....I fell off the self imposed "virginity" wagon. ....sort of.... lol And this morning.....well I don't know how I feel. For all my talk about not wanting to sleep with just anyone and all my "saving" myself for someone who means something etc.....my body....just hasn't been making it easy for me lately....So I had a date...and it was nice...really really nice....hell i have a dozen roses on my kitchen counter...that's how nice it was! And then...he kissed me...and all hell broke lose.....and I couldn't stop...my will power (hi midwest)....snapped...my "hey not the jeans".....couldn't get the words out of my mouth....Now i said I "sort of" fell off because there wasn't any sex but there might as well have been..... and that voice in my head whisphered "stop darlin" a few times but i think at one point I gagged her...lol.... (shut up didn't seem to be working!!) So this am I'm reminding myself that 1. I'm an adult 2. I'm a single adult 3. he was a single adult 4 I really really really needed it and am trying not to beat myself up too much. And I will admit it was nice to crawl into bed with "mr teddy bear" and be satiated....and be worn out ...and it not be because I'd spent three hours buried in my chem book. Still I can't help being a little disappointed in myself....I've been down this road.....and its always led to heartbreak.....lord what's a girl to do???? lol Oh well...I'm gonna put the bat away and stop beating myself up.....and just look at it as a very fun evening with a really nice guy who just pushed the right button at exactly the right moment......now i know your wondering if it'll happen again.....i don't know.....guess we will find out..... smiles and hugs ......"your little less horny then she was yesterday" NOC2

ps...i think it was because he and i sat on the swings together and talked....lol....the straw that broke noc2 's willpower...hehe

fndsinva 50M

6/22/2006 12:37 pm

That is great!!!.....I think. I only say I think because you seem to be questioning it. I think the 4 points you bring up are perfectly valid ones and I for one am happy for you. I hope your days continue to be happy and fun.....nights too!!!

MildOne20109 50M
17 posts
6/22/2006 5:08 pm

Hey NOC2, It's good to know that you have been satisfied, for now. I hope that this guy keeps talking to you on the swings. I know what you mean about leading you down to heartache. However, you have to keep in mind that nothing ventured, nothing gained. It could be that the connection that you made on the swings and in bed, may be the ones that last for a very long time. Lets just hope he likes to take you out dancing. That would be the triple header for you.

Have fun, and enjoy your life. it is not all supposed to be spend frustrated.


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