Great -- horny again!!  

noordinarychic2 48F
510 posts
4/26/2006 1:16 am

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Great -- horny again!!


So just when I thought "oh thank God -- almost a whole week without that crazy, gotta have it, damn he's hot, damn I'm wet ache"...its back Well not totally but somewhat...now what brought it roaring back....my best friend...God love him but why the fuck does he have to be so gorgeous and have such great hands???? hmmm??? lol. Funny thing....I mentioned in my second list about me being "not so ordinary" that when you love someone's insides, their outsides look more attractive...well I think that's what happened with him. Now I see him a lot in a setting where there are a lot of gorgeous, hot, sweaty guys walking around...hmmmm.....wonder where that is??? lol And I often find it amusing that to me...he's the most gorgeous guy in the place...now realistically speaking he's not....but to me....can't beat him. So back to being horny --- lol....the other night we were sitting on his couch...we have this standing "date" ...been doing it for about two years almost every sunday night. (call it couch time...lol.) that of course stems from the days when couch time was REALLY couch time...now it just means dinner and whatever movie one of us got from netflix...and he gets his weekly back scratch and I get my weekly back rub. Now usually its very quick cause both of us are on the verge of falling asleep....yes I stay over....lol.....we're probably the only non-couple I know that spend the night in each other's bed--ususally naked and NOTHING happens...lol....NOTHING....lol. Well this time I got a serious back rub/tickle whatever you want to call it....no shirt...he undid my bra....it was heaven.....and It struck me that I love that mans hands....and that my body....loves his touch....instantly I reacted. Now I can't let him know...because to him....its not flattering....it makes him hurt....deep inside because he still carries around a lot of guilt over only loving me as his best friend......but hell....its was nice....albeit i laid in bed that night thinking....hmmm...wonder how he'd react if i just rolled over.....stuck my head under the covers like i used to and reminded his body of how much it used to like me????? I didn't of course but still......and that did it....I'm back in "god please ....I sooooooooo need a really good hard love making session"...lol.....Oh well..... On another note....the gym is starting to pay off....lol. I was sitting on his couch in a sweats and a little tee shirt and he noticed....I think he's words were "damn dude (my nickname of choice...lol) whats with that flat tummy thing? "....hehe....when the man whose around you almost every day of your life notices your body is changing....its changing!!! so smiles all....its gonna be another gorgeous day! Now if I could just go back to sleep --- its 4 am and I'm wide awake......see what happens when i go to bed early!!! hugs and smiles and all things good.....NOC2

MildOne20109 50M
17 posts
4/26/2006 4:22 am

Ah, the relationship of addiction.

It sounds as it you are addicted to this guy friend. I can really identify, only mine was to my ex-wife. It is kind of like a smoker hanging out in a bowling ally, you are going to light up, no matter how much you want to quit.

It looks like you have a couple of choices to make:
1. Is this the type of relationship that I want for myself?

2. Could I be happy if I was with someone that would give love to me freely.

It may sound simple, but the human mind and our emotions get it the way of a lot of things, like our own happiness. From what you have written above, it sounds like you don't feel yourself worthy of being completely loved. I guess that's why you will put up with this emotionaly draining relationship.

Just keep in mind, that you are worth the love and affection of a man that wants you and that it is your choice to stay or go.

Either way, I hope that you do find your happiness.


midwestboy1972 44M  
663 posts
4/26/2006 4:49 am

horniness does not mellow out. I takes a holiday and comes back with a vengence!


noordinarychic2 48F
242 posts
4/26/2006 9:59 am

Well midwest...its back with a hell of a lot of vengence and btw I need lessons in how to tie a man to a bed...lol Smiles....and mild one....you, as always, have given me a lot to think about.....thanks guys....smiles and hugs....noc2


sassybelle21 32F
13313 posts
4/26/2006 5:56 pm

"when you love someone's insides, their outsides look more attractive."

That is so me too!! It's weird but I guess his inside matters more to me.


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