Drowning in Education  

noordinarychic2 48F
510 posts
9/2/2006 7:36 am

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9/4/2006 10:44 am

Drowning in Education

Oh boy...I am on geeky, studious, hand me my anatomy book, I'm sure I have some to study chic! School is in full swing. Didn't take it long this semester to really get rockin! I've discovered that (and my mother takes great joy in reminding me that i've always been this way!) I love school. I like the hustle and bustle, the promise of a better future that each passing day reminds me is getting closer. I like the feeling I have these days of being an active player in my life. For a greater part of my adulthood I stayed in the "box" I thought was my life. I stayed in that marriage that did nothing but break me down emotionally. I stayed at the job I secretly hated because I made too much money and hey someone had to pay for that nice big house! Everything I had wanted for myself go packaged up and put on the shelf. Now, every day reminds me that I've been given a chance to live it all over again. How many people say "if I could only go back? If I could know what I know now and be 20 again." Well I'm not 20 again but I have been given the gift of going back. I'm single, no one to take care of now but me. I've no longer have that job I detested. I'm back in school pursuing my dream. I live with a roomate, and have that fill in job to pay the bills and get me through. Funny, its very much like my life was at 20 -- which coincindentally is the age where I made that first really bad life decision....I left school for a man. (i know, i know...what the hell was I thinking)...anyway I say all of that to say that I appreciate my life now more then I ever have. I look at the pile of books beside me waiting for me to finish the blog and get this little twinge of satisfaction. It only took me 20 years to stop settling....and to realize that my feet are finally on the path they were intended to walk...I just took a little 20 year detour! smiles all...and hey anybody wanna come help me with my medical terminology cause dammit there are way toooo many words to learn! i'm off to.....study! lol...big surprise there....noc2

silverglider58 58M
111 posts
9/4/2006 5:30 am

NC2 I know all to much about staying in a job that I hate and I too make a ridiculous amount of money and it all goes to pay for that nice big house I live in. It is so nice to hear that you have broken out of that box and made a choice that you did. Proud of you even if I don't know you. We make decisions at time without thinking about the consequences and boy do we pay for them, sometimes for years. But your decision is a good one and once you graduate you will be proud of what you accomplished and have the financial security you want. Good luck to you. If you need a model to get some visuals on the male anatomy, I am available by appointment...LOL!

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