A Lonely Night and Only Those Arms Will Do  

noordinarychic2 48F
510 posts
6/14/2006 10:55 pm

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6/15/2006 10:07 pm

A Lonely Night and Only Those Arms Will Do

Its been a rough day being me guys. For all my outward optimism, I just wonder why? Why? I wish I could rewind today....rewind it back to that phone call...why didn't I just tell him to bring the camara to work with him...why did I insist on swinging past his house....Honostly...at the time I was thinking of him...I didn't want him to have to bother with taking it with him....Now....we had yet another night of angry text messages and hurtful phone calls....he hurts too....and I finally had to just get out of bed....the more i laid in the dark...the more alone I felt....the more I thought about his arms and how it used to be that whenever I felt sad or lonely ... they were my harbor....no matter the storm... there I would be safe.
It's sad to see a friendship dying in front of you.... but ours -- no matter how determined we say we are to save it --- is slowly slipping into the past....and for that...tonight...I cry....alone....with only a teddy bear to hold. (and yes NOC2 has a teddy bear).....so to all of you out there who are lonely....here's a hug....don't worry...tomorrow the sun will shine and life will go on..... and you will smile.... if for no other reason then that NOC2 publicly admitted to having a teddy bear....me

rappahannock_man 62M
1102 posts
6/14/2006 11:41 pm

You can cry, you know. Most of us do from time to time. But you must understand that nothing stays the same fror very long, and you will be OK.

Now you really have me wishing I could just sit down and chat with you, NOC2.... Got me feeling all fatherly and protective...!


midwestboy1972 44M  
659 posts
6/15/2006 4:51 am

Wow, and I thought I was having some bad days! You know you're right that you're never going to be right until you let this go. I've been fortunate enough to keep some ex-girlfriends as friends in the past, although eventually they do seem to fade away. You said you were moving away and perhaps that's for the best. If I could offer one piece of advice, it would be to just stop talking to him for awhile altogether, no text messages, no phone, no nothing. That would be the real test of faith. After awhile, you'll find that you can talk again without all the jealousy and anger. You may also find that your feelings for him have been getting in the way of finding the happiness you're truly looking for! Hugs and kisses and the best of luck NOC2

fndsinva 51M

6/15/2006 2:23 pm

I think midwest gave some very good advice. My two cents in this case is....you will get through it. Remember, as some doors close, new ones open up. In the last week you have opened up two GREAT opportunities, and I am sure more are on the way. I (we) will be here if you need anything or to talk....otherwise, I just wish you the best of luck.

noordinarychic2 48F
242 posts
6/15/2006 7:20 pm

have I mentioned I luv you guys...thanks for all the advise from the male perspective and your right fnds....good things have happened......and fyi....that date i had a few weekends ago...was one of them!!

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