If you could go back...would you?  

no_strings_grrl 44F
270 posts
7/26/2005 9:45 pm

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If you could go back...would you?


If you were given the choice to go back, to immerse yourself in the sweet oblivion of your past - to when and where would you return?

H.P. Lovecraft was one of the greatest horror-story weavers of all time. He wrote a story called "The Silver Key". It tells of a man consumed and ever-pining for the magical innocence of his youth. He finds a silver key in the attic of the old farmhouse he grew up in, and, key in hand, takes a nostalgic walk in the woods. There time loses meaning, and he slips into a dream-like dimension that is a scene from his most cherished childhood memory. He suddenly finds himself faced with a choice: remain in this child's dream of a reality forever, or go back to his life.

To me, if heaven is a recreation of the greatest, most uncorrupted and perfect appreciation of life itself...

I would undoubtably find myself floating in the ocean on a hot August day. My cousin Tiffany and I would be bobbing up and down, perched on our boogey boards, awaiting the next killer wave to carry us inshore. The sun has dried the water from my warm, brown skin and the salt crystals tickle my arm hairs. A nice, cold Dr. Pepper would taste good right about now. Mmmm. Time to get wet. We position ourselves side by side, and wait. We smile at one another as the we spot a large swell heading our way. We begin to paddle and the timing is pefect. The rolling wave sucks us up and shoves us out front as it peaks at around 6 feet and breaks all around us. The momentum (to us) is breath-taking and carries us all the way to the sand castle mote, where it drops us abruptly on the sand. We giggle loudly and run up the beach to the umbrella, sun chairs and coolers.

Cracking an ice-cold Dr. Pepper, on the beach after body boarding on a hot day. I guess I was 10 years old. That was life at its most delicious and pure. The only thing that existed was the moment - and I savored every last moment I had, every year at Sunset Beach for one week out of the year.

Lord, before I die... please, let me feel that way just one more time.

wyvernrose 38F
3895 posts
7/26/2005 10:41 pm

hmmmmmmm a time to go back too that's actually really hard sorry, was always shadows in my youth....

WyvernRose


Philosophy_N_Sex 49M/47F

7/27/2005 9:25 am

Well I have often wished to go back in time.

I would look over the archived lotto numbers, and go back jsut before the stock-dot com economic boom and be a gazillionaire.

the problem is my kids would not exist, I would be essentailly taking two lives. Or would I? since I am back in time they never existed, but yet they did.

Could I stop the world trade center attack? Save more tsunami victims? take cures back to the time of the plague?

I usually think of going back in time for selfish reasons


HughJarse2000 47M

8/1/2005 6:51 am

I don't just want to go back in time , I want to do the whole lot all over again and again. And mostly with out changing any of it!!!

I love how it all works out. How we slowly learn and the big picture fills in but I would so good back to ignorance, hope, inexperience, careless days, and life in the moment. For sure !

I want to go back to a time when laughing meant crossing your legs to avoid wetting yourself. When getting drunk meant waiting for your bedroom to stop spinning. First accidental self discovery orgasm. Back to waiting for the mail man for love letters, real handwriting on paper - oh yeah. Spying on my teenage neigbours bedroom window when I was 13. Finding my first porno tape in parents wardrobe. Back to Christmas that kept you awake for nights prior in anticipation.

But mostly I would go back 10 months to be so so so deeply in love with "her" again , even knowing that it all turns to shit just would so love to make love to her one more time the way we did, a time when the Earth never seemed to stop moving . . .


rm_mobieG2 45M

8/2/2005 5:52 am

I am sorry guys to be the buzz-kill here....I have thought a lot about "going back" and reliving and/or fixing things. It is the life we have lived that has shaped us into who and what we are. Wanting to relive parts of it makes us realize that our life is a good one. Or not wanting to relive a dark moment usually means we had something foisted on us, something we could not control. If we change our life we change ourself. If we go back and relive a moment it will be different to us now because we have changed/evolved.
Like i said i am sorry to kill the buzz here....I was on that buzz for a long time and sometimes i miss it....


rm_talldarkavg1 105M
10172 posts
8/4/2005 3:16 pm

Nah, the present is good enough for me. Couldn't handle the zit stage again.

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