The Beast You See  

nightstalker172 36M
1646 posts
11/10/2005 1:43 pm

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4/5/2006 12:41 am

The Beast You See

I shall step out of the darkness for a moment and into the light of purity. I have been beaten, blooded, and broken many times from the Masses serrated blades of intolerance. The small incisions they make not meant to cripple but just to sting. 1000 little wounds can still cause you to bleed to death. For what? to show dominance? to make you feel better about yourself? Because I'm a freak to you? Because I fight against you? Because I don't live up to your standards?

A twisted disgusting beast that needs to be slain. That is all you see.

A beast incapable of love or compassion

A beast a ruthless and cold killer

A beast a sadistic creature who thrives on the pain of others.

A beast a soulless minion of destruction.


Yet who is the real beast? Is it the broken and bloodied outcast? or those who have done the breaking and the bleeding of an outcast? Who is the real monster here?

Curse me I will curse you back.

Punch me I will punch you back.

Kick me I will kick you back.

Stab me I will claw you back.

Kill me I will take you with me.


You only come at me because you fear me. If you understood me you would know I mean you no harm. Just to look for a friend amongst many enemies. To be left out and cast aside NO MORE!

Disgusting? This may be true but only to you

Incapable of love? Give me a chance to show you.

Cold killer? Only to those who threaten the ones I care about.

Thrive on pain? The only pain Ive known is what you gave me.

Soulless? No, its there just hidden from you because you don't deserve to see it.


I'm beaten, broken, and bloodied but I will still fight you. To prove to you that I'm not a monster, beast, or freak. I fight only to help you see me. I may not win this much is true, but an honorable death is all I ask of you.

Know that is was a pleasure to fight with you.


spinmedown 49M
3626 posts
11/10/2005 6:41 pm

I think this is the most powerful writing of yours that I have seen so far. Very powerful, very moving, makes me want to fight against all the injustice in the world with truth on my side.

Good doesn't always triumph over evil, and sometimes it is our perceptions of what is good or evil that are to blame.

Most people are other people... FUCKING CHARACTER LIMIT!!! ~Oscar Wilde


bardicman 50M

11/10/2005 7:13 pm

Ummmmm, Maybe I am not the only one who finds the thrill in large amounts of alcoholic beverages and hand fulls of antidepressants....





I am not dead yet


curious082385 31F
4925 posts
11/11/2005 1:53 am

I agree with Spinme....incredible writing, my dear. Moving and powerful. Keep fighting.


nightstalker172 36M
1258 posts
11/11/2005 9:07 am

Spin - Well...thank you for the complinment. The little argument I got into in blogland jumpstared me and the crap ive delt with inspired it.

Bardicman - well I dont take anti-depressants..and I havent been drinking in a long time...so I guess this is what happens when Im sober

Curious - thank you sweety


klauskissnhug 57M

11/12/2005 7:08 pm

I feel privileged to have found your blog. I was only able to get through the first page (because of time constraints) but I'll be back. Cool as hell.


boobookittybabe 42F
1 post
11/13/2005 8:38 am

I've just begun my 'journey into your world' I stumbled upon you only moments ago. I must say you have already caught my attention, enough that I will be a faithful reader. Your intelligence intrigues me...
~Tina~


rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
11/13/2005 12:51 pm

That was very good and very scary, I see why you chose that handle.


nightstalker172 36M
1258 posts
11/13/2005 1:31 pm

Klauskissnhug - The priveledge is all mine haveing you as a guest thank you for the compliments

Boobookittybabe - I always welcome new followers into my world of darkness Hope your ready for it

Saintlianna - aww dont be affraid I wont hurt you not unless you are very nice to me and ask politely j/k And NO..I didnt take my handle from the serial killer of the same nick name...but..I get that alot for some reason...oh well what can you do. Ive thought about changing it but I dont know Ive made friends and it just seems that it wouldnt be the same if I did


PrincessKarma 43F
6188 posts
11/13/2005 3:23 pm

nightstalker: have any strong liquor handy? I coud use some....

Huh... confirmation number for this comment: 666

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma


PrincessKarma 43F
6188 posts
11/13/2005 3:25 pm

"Yet who is the real beast? Is it the broken and bloodied outcast? or those who have done the breaking and the bleeding of an outcast? Who is the real monster here?"

Those who bertrayed our trust, who took advantge of a kind and loving heart for their own cruel amusement.

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma


nightstalker172 36M
1258 posts
11/13/2005 7:12 pm

PK - Are you serious! 666...or are you just poking fun at me I cant argue with you though there is nothing worse in this world to me than a traitor. They are honorless dogs who deserve a traitors death.


PrincessKarma 43F
6188 posts
11/13/2005 8:26 pm

I kid you not, it WAS 666...

There is someone I thought was my friend, I loved and trusted her, was there for her when she was down, listened to her when she neded to vent... and she went after the man I loved, all the while pretending not to know why he began avoiding me, the whore. I discovered the truth. I am shattered.

Yet I will go on, I WILL be happy. In spite of them.

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma


desleeped 34M

11/13/2005 11:24 pm

"The darkest circle of hell is reserved for traitors and mutineers."
-Captain Jack Sparrow
In the world we live in, to find trustworthy people is to find a gem more beautiful than a diamond as the sun gleams through its facets. I have been betrayed in cruel manners. I have been shunned like some sort of monster. I am still feared for thing that never happened. Rumors. Lies. Sometimes those we care about can be the most effective weapon against us.
M/c


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