Devoured Soul  

nightstalker172 36M
1646 posts
11/27/2005 4:16 am

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8/31/2006 4:49 am

Devoured Soul

Darkness my old friend it is so good to see you once more. How you've helped me through some rough times in the past. I come to you once more. Letting your sweet embrace take me. Letting you engulf my soul. Today has been a bad day indeed. But then you already knew that didnt you. You knew that because I only come to you when troubled. What is the pain that plagues me this day? Oh you already know. The pain of the heart. The wounds continue to fester they never seem heal. I feel the ache with every breath of life I take. Every glass of purity I drink does nothing. It aches, it bleeds, it crys out in pain. With no end in sight.

Oh darkness I sit engulfed in you to heal, to hide and regroup, to think. Not even you seem to help. I know you mean well. I am a beast, a monster, all I do is tear myself to shreds. With the claws of loathing and the talons of regret. They dig deep and feirce. Then the teeth of rage sink in and all I can do is scream. The wounds will not heal. I live an eternity of bleeding out. The visicous sting of each cut. The deep throbbing of each bite. All of it is nothing compared to the wounds on the heart, my soul....

My soul is a empty void. All that it once was has been drained. Any light or ray of hope has dwinlded to a flicker you can barely see. Why do the fates torment me so? The one thing I want I cannot have. I can visit but never touch, never hold, never love. To have these visits is only to realize how wonderful it is and yet never being able to exsperience it. Its better to forget, but you cant. Who could?

You taunt and tease me and pretend to care only to manipulate and use me for your own late night snack. Devourer of souls is what you are. The worst of the worst. A succubus leading me to my doom. I hate your kind. You're all the same. You bring nothing but misery to those who are good. What did I do to deserve this pain? Did I not help enough? Did I not treat others kindly enough?

Why not finish me? YOu have broken me entirely why let me suffer? Iam a wounded animal that will never be the same again. Why not show mercy? I thought I deserved that much. So do you worst it doesnt matter anymore. I may walk I may breath but inside Im dead. Soul that no longer shines. Just a black void.....

I am undead. Not quite alive not quite dead. My heart beats, my blood flows, I breath in and out, Im warm to the touch but I feel cold. Betrayed, Forsaken, left for dead. I just dont care anymore. I await you Grim. I await your sweet embrace. The finality of your scythe as you come to harvest me. Only then will the pain stop. Only then will I know true peace.

DukeAbbaddon 41M
280 posts
11/27/2005 5:53 am

well is it a quote ? its nice !

well on the hand negitive to women !

over all i like your post its passion is more than enough to make a nice girl happy ! i think but done wip them !

being bigger is hard but in todays america normal unless you want a fitter lady i imagine easy to be ... ?

rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
11/27/2005 6:01 am

That was really good, I like the "waiting for my body to catch up" part.

PrincessKarma 43F
6188 posts
11/27/2005 6:40 am

*sheds a tear for the pained soul*

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma

goddessofbitches 41M/33F

11/27/2005 10:04 am

As the goddessofbitches looked on and saw her friend, her secret lover laying on the ground hurt, she floated down and lifted his head into her lap. She kissed him softly to let him know she was back and that this time, she would try not to stay away for so long.... She did her little movement that instantly had nightstalker laying in her bed resting.... "There now Tiger, all will be well in the morning."


Always The Bitch

spinmedown 49M
3626 posts
11/27/2005 7:31 pm

Catharsis Extraordinare

*spills PBR while giving standing ovation and curses the darkness*

Most people are other people... FUCKING CHARACTER LIMIT!!! ~Oscar Wilde

curious082385 31F
4925 posts
11/28/2005 3:38 am

No matter what the darkness brings for you, don't let yourself believe that you are a monster. There are those of us here who see so clearly through your words to what lies beneath and see the loving soul behind the pain and anger.
{=}Keep your head up...

nightstalker172 36M
1258 posts
11/28/2005 5:45 am

spin - um....whats PBR....I cant seem to place what that could possibly stand for.

Curious - Ill try

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