Why?  

newsready 49F
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12/16/2005 9:20 am
Why?

Why do some people have to make things so difficult?

Why, do you sit all alone in your room and pout? You sit there and drown om your on self pity, boo hoo whoo is me, I am so lonely, I have nothing to do and no one to be with?

Bull shit!!!!!!

Not that the one person I am talking about ever reads my blog but here I sit typing away to anyone who will read this.

I seem to have this talent, if you will, of falling into difficult relationships. The type that start off good and then turn to hard to manage, confusing, emotional roller coaster rides. Taking me up as high as I can go only to plunge down hard and fast. Never staying up long enough to enjoy the view. It is these traumatic type relationships that weigh heaviest on me.

I could have plenty of relationships with new and interesting, sexy, fun loving guys. Yet here I sit wondering what he is doing, why hasn't he called me, or IM'd or why does he not want to see me? Most of all why, if you have the chance to be with a, somewhat good looking, funny, sexy, sensitive, caring, understanding woman. WHY in the hell do you choose to sit in a hotel room all alone pouting and moaning about how lonely you are?

Makes no sense to me. Could someone please explain it to me?


rm_gscotth 51M
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12/16/2005 9:52 am

I can totally sympathize with you about your "roller coaster" relationship. I've been through a whole string of them over the last many years, and I agree with you that it shouldnt have to be that way. love/happy relationship (whatever kind they are) "shouldnt be hard work," ya know? as for your fellow that you are "pining for," he probably has a complete set of internal issues (baggage of some sort) that keeps him from having that "happy life together" we all want. trust me on this one. my ex-fiance is the same way, and finally "gave up on me" because she wasnt "emotionally available," and she couldnt or wouldnt face it, and since she wouldnt face it, I became a pretty sad morose person towards the end of our 3-year relationship, which in turn made her sad and morose, which made me worse... can you see the vicious cycle here? not sure if this really helped clear anything up for you, just wanted you to know you're not alone.

peace, always peace.
scotth


newsready 49F

12/16/2005 10:07 am

Thanks for your input qscotth, I know all too well my ex was the same. I am just fusterated that, the only type of men I seem to be attracted too turn out this way. Don't get me wrong, I am still dating others and having fun. I just don't know what it is about this one that keep me hanging on instead of walking away.


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