What is the point?  

newsready 49F
12/18/2005 7:01 am
What is the point?

I recently had some one speak a couple of words to me that have gotten to me in a way nothing else has in a while. Those two words, have made me stop and think, re-evaluated my life and take a good hard look at my past and think about what it is I want for my future.

It is not so much the words he spoke but the context in which they where spoken. What are these two words your probably wondering? Well they are "meaningless sex". Hummmm I thought, to me sex means a lot of things. Joy, pleasure, excitement, a little pain, intimacy, and yes even love. But after thinking about my past adventures we can call them, over this past yr. Meaningless sex, could describe a few encounters I have had.

But why now, why these two words, why this person who spoke them to me? I don't know. I don't even think he knows the extent of the effect his words have had on me. Or the effect he has had on me.

I find myself turning down dates, canceling dates to free up time just on the off chance that he wants to see me. Thoughts of him fill my mind, where is he, what is he doing, is he thinking about me at all, damn it this is nerve racking.

As I sit here typing this I am thinking about him still. I long to hear his voice, to see his face, to look into his beautiful green eyes, to feel his touch, to taste his kiss. Yet, there is nothing. My mind tells me to give up this fight and move on to someone else, but my heart tells me to keep trying. What is it about this man that has such a great hold over me, though we have only been together a few times, and I know almost nothing about him?

rm_Young102 40M
181 posts
12/18/2005 10:41 pm

There is always a point, we just have to hold back, think, and self-reflect....Basically, we create the meaning of our emotions and our actions and behind that there is a point. The hard thing however is to uncover this point because we are usually blind of ourselves and what we really need or do to satisfy our needs. I found myself feeling empty and failed in the past...I was in need to hold from something, from someone and thus I had to create a meaning so that I could securly place myself into the realm of my emotional paradise....But what happened and what happens usually to many people is that the construction of my meaning did not satisfy me in the long term...in other words I had lost the point of myself and I just created an ephemeral meaning to keep me happy....
I think that you have developed very strong feelings but you need to think why you give a particular meaning to them....I know love has no logic but sometimes we want to believe that we are in love...and if we really are then we have to be strong and fight for this love. This is the point! And if the one we love does not share the same feelings, then love will still remain deep inside the heart, stay friends and wish good luck to this other one in the search of love...

rm_Bct2Esi 51M/50F
1375 posts
12/19/2005 6:13 am

I agree with young, as the saying goes...let them go and if they come back then it was meant to be. I know easier said then done. But there are times when one has to simply just sit, find the meaning for these feelings...is it simple lust, meaningless sex or is it love...... and let go in order to find.

hugs and smiles

newsready 49F

12/19/2005 8:59 am

Thanks you guys I appericate the input. I have taken some time to think and agree with you both.

rm_gscotth 51M
3 posts
12/21/2005 12:17 am

phermones };-> ~chuckle~, and a want to be wanted as much as you want to be with that "special" someone. when you find/meet, and spend time with someone that totally rocks your world physically and emotionally, then of course you're going to want more, and your mind *will* play tricks on you as to where your truer feelings lie. take some time for yourself with this. take a step back, and a deep breath, just for the self. look within, and ask yourself where the infatuation lies? separate the fantasy from the reality, and see where of the cards fall. you will find your peace with this soon enough.


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