A fork in the road... directions with no map  

newfornow22 33F
270 posts
2/17/2006 6:22 am

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A fork in the road... directions with no map

Hi people's,
I am shocked that you would return for another heaping helping of my bitching and complaining.
I read the last few blogs and i realized that i sound like a miserable cranky BITCH. for lack of a better word. I am SO SORRY ya'll. It's true i have been going through a rough patch, but i don't need to take it out on you. And i do know better, Now that it is clear to me i will carefully avoid doing it again.
I told myself, when i started noticing people were reading my blogs, that i wouldn't ever use my blogging to hurt any one or make any one feel badly. I want people to read a blog i wrote and walk away having gained something or in the least, feeling good about themselves and the new day they are facing. I have failed miserably doing that this past week. And I am truly shamed.
I have come to a fork in the road, to take one road will mean that i will lose something i have come to care about and in some respects depend on. But by losing this one thing i will gain back some sanity, and time i am devoting to this thing is getting very consuming, i will conserve time that is, of course, precious.
By taking another road, i would keep this certain something and have that comfort, and i could continue doing that something special that i love. But i would continue to lose time and i would continue to have that stress factor as well.
Iam torn between these two things, and at times like this i wish i had a little mini instruction booklet, i would stop the car,(in my mind of course), and i would pull out of my back pocket a faded and worn copy of the instructions and directions for my life. And i would be on the right track again in no time. No need to stress, so Ive made a mess of my life, that's alright. Just pull out that manual flip it to chapter 22 and find February and there you have it. The clearly printed directions for getting out of shit creek, no paddle required.
These are the things i think about when left to my own devices. Maybe I should seek the help of a shrink. I can't think of anything more appealing than laying on a couch talking my fool head off for exactly 55 minutes while a bored looking sex deprived man, who looks suspiciously like a character in the mystery game "clue", in a terrible vest tries to nod and grunt at the appropriate times while still trying to carefully calculate and update his check book in his mind. That is a nice hour of fun, but then the really fun part is when he says times up as your getting to what's really bothering you and you actually pay him for the pleasure of his company and exactly 50 bucks per grunt. And yes, if you were going to ask, he does take visa, master-card and American express. No personal checks, or money orders. And you must have two pieces of id for every credit card charge.He threw the yawns in for free, btw. Remember to thank him and send him a Christmas card next year. Thank you for your patronage and do please come back.
I would rather be shot. I will lean on my own common sense for this fork in the road. I haven't got the patience for Col. Mustards grunts today.
Or better yet I'll ask the opinion of my peoples.
What road would you take?
thanks y'all
and stay positive, its the only defense you have got ! lol
Liv


rm_Enthralled2b 68M
1 post
2/17/2006 7:17 am

At 22 you have to give it time.... *soft smile*.... I'm 57 and it took me ages to find my way.... Now I use cyber for what it does best.... allow 2 people to express their hidden desires without harming anyone.... I don't and won't commit online.... but the cybersex and phonesex are out of this world.... *weg*.... I've read your posts about analingus and they make me HARD each and every time.... would LOVE to hear from you.... email same as my handle at yahoo.com....


saddletrampsk 54F

2/17/2006 7:32 am

Find a different shrink..try a woman next time..good luck in finding that road map..and don't feel bad about venting on your blog..it's your blog and it's supposed to serve you..


sensually_4ever 42M/F

2/17/2006 7:34 am

hmmmm... well take the road less travelled of course.. and the one you truly enjoy...

Btw if you were referring to blogging as being very time consuming?.. yes you are right it is.. but don't blog so much then I guess.. Do it when the mood or fancy strikes you.. cause it really isn't supposed to be there really for other people to read.. they will read it of course, But it is there for you to say what you want to say..

At least that is how I see it

CHeers

Sensually_4ever


dandy6912000 60M/59F
3383 posts
2/17/2006 7:54 am

Well, you may already know which road to take, and it is the only one of your choosing, and that is the way it works. I have found sometimes the side roads and back roads have great views as well. Sometimes we do have to make a point or two of your feeling here for we are humans afterall, and no matter how we try to say it. There comes a time we have to get it out, So don't worry about what you have said here or there. it is the whole person I see. You have a good day, and wish both you and your brother well respecfully Dandy 6912000


rm_observer106 66M
6 posts
2/17/2006 8:21 am

Liv,

I have found that, most of the time, when we "agonize" over decisions of this type, we already know the correct answer. We're just not crazy about it.<grin> And sometimes there really isn't a "right" answer, just different. You're a smart girl, so I have confidence that you'll make a good decision.

Take care, Kid.
o106


Guy1378Fox 45M

2/17/2006 10:37 am

Without any information on either road, I cannot speculate. Don't worry about being unpleasant in your blog. You have had a rough time of it, and your friends understand. There is no map for life. We have to figure it out as we go. If there were a map, I would still be thouroghly lost right now. Maybe, it is time to find some place to take a break from driving and stop for lunch. If we should happen to stop for lunch at the same place and time we can try to help each other figure out where to go from here. that little winding road that follows the river might be nice. If we dont figure it out, at least we would have each others company for a short time. (Or, maybe I should leave metaphores alone.)


rm_srbondlady 47M/43F

2/17/2006 12:34 pm

Here's a reasonable take on what a blog is and what you can do with it: http://AdultFriendFinder.com

So, bitch, whine, complain, or sing praises. It's your blog, and if someone pisses you off (hopefully not me anytime soon!), let 'em have it. If you feel like it, that is. It's your blog; if you aren't happy-shiny all the time, that's your choice. To anyone who is offended by something in a blog: Screw 'em (let's stick with figuratively here on this one).

As you and other people have already pointed out, you have quite a bit going on in your life. I wouldn't blame you if you were more angry or down, considering what is going on with your brother and what sounds like pretty much every other aspect of your life. Just keep blogging . . . I like being a voyeur in your life (yes, that's right, you're doing all of this for me, right?).


newfornow22 33F

2/17/2006 6:00 pm

Thanks ya'll, especially Dandy, srbondlady, and fox.
You guys are so sweet and good to me, thanks a million guys!
yours,
Liv


rm_iamsam_78 38M

2/18/2006 4:23 pm

We have all come to a fork in the road. I have had two serious girls in my life. The first dumped me, then married a close friend. The other was very special to me, but I had to dump her. I didn't want to cheat on her so I chose to break up with her before my sexual desire crushed her by being unfaithful. I could have easily married her except her sexual appitite was only a fraction of mine. Eventually I would have straighed to another who was willing to satisfy me.

Good luck in choosing your path. Remember if you are not happy now you will never be happy later.


newfornow22 33F

2/18/2006 4:51 pm

Monogamy is a myth, and a totally unnatural state of being.
You show me one person who is 100% faithful 100% of the time and I'll show you a big fat liar. In the bible it says that if a man looks upon a woman with lust in his heart, that man has already commited adultery. Don't feel so bad dude,and thanks for your comment.
Liv

yes, I quoted the BIBLE people, don't be so surprised.


allaboutass2006 42M
29 posts
2/21/2006 5:37 am

I know I have told you this before, but you are a truly wise person. I wish I could just once see the world through your eyes. You are able to express yourself through words and that is a rare gift. As for advice, well, I believe you have made your choice and now comes the difficult part, sticking to it. You are a strong, intelligent, woman and I believe you will do what is best for you. That's all anyone can ask of themself.


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