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mysticmonty 41F
347 posts
10/8/2005 8:00 pm

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I am...

really happy that people responded to my posts, and have honest and delightful comments. Appreciate it.

not a mean person, to that guy who confessed to being over the hill for me, after just reading my blog, sorry man...I didn't mean to be harsh or arrogant, just simple direct. Of course friendships can happen, it's possible for a local guy like you to know me too. heheheh...

pragmatic? French cook, I hope you meant this well because I am a realist to a certain extent. Yes, I do express whatever I think and feel here, which is basically my intentions in the first place. I want to say thank you for your comments.

feeling relaxed, calm and collected today, but I wish there was something else to spice up my life! An adventure. Exciting and unpredictable.
MORE ideas to write on and experiences to share with you, not just a fantasy but fact.

so into ColdPlay right now, their music makes me feel good and happy about myself, hopeful and reflective.

trying to enjoy myself, despite my usual load of work and blah blah blah...stop complaining and make something work, is there anyone out there who feels anything like I do now?

Be coy no more, talk to me.

rm_jeanquille 42M

10/9/2005 1:05 am

I just did an honest answer in the respect of your personality, I do think that your post reflect perfectly yourself so, by "pragmatic and objective", I was giving no particular meaning since I just express what your posts was showing as I know you only by them.

What I say was not in the intention to shag your leg but answer the way you was expecting people to answer, I find it very cute the way you express yourself, direct & honest (almost ingenuous), I am almost sure that you didn't think for one minute that you will be flame for expressing yourself like that.
Reading you almost feels like reading your mind as we discover your strengh of character along the lines.

What ever the reason of these flames (pride, self contentement, revenge) they are still usefull to know ourself better, because of the way we handle these comments, and how people perceive us. Even so it is still very irritating to be confronts with people selfish enough to not accept others choices, what ever these choices.

Life is an adventure, just do whatever you want it to be. The adventure is never that far, the excitement is at the corner of the street and the unpredictable is behind your door, Are our expectations often to high or the results to disapointing? I think so.


mysticmonty 41F

10/9/2005 9:32 pm

I know you're right about life being an adventure. But when we have certain responsibilities and constraints, we cannot quite enjoy the adventure, eventhough it exists or we are in fact, riding it at the moment. Disappointments, we all have them, in different levels, I'm sure and the thing about me is, I tend to have, well...I won't really say often high levels, but some level of expectation when I'm involved in something or someone. Because, I think if I don't have a high level of expectation of it, then I'm just settling for the ordinary. I don't want ordinary, usual, common, mediocre something or someone. I want an attractive difference, that can sustain my interest and challenge my intellectual and not be bored easily. This is very important for me. I don't know how other people view their expectations. I'd rather be disappointed than not having a self-prescribed expectation.
I don't know if I make sense here but it makes sense to me.

Comments, questions, new expectations? Share with me, please.

*kiss* to my french cook

rm_jjtanjung 49M
2 posts
10/10/2005 5:30 pm

Cool mind expressions, Montificious One. In my place, just avoiding the pressures of the day before the momentum kicks in.

Adventure that chases the lonely. Yeah! We all need it.

Thanks for letting random strangers listen to you exploring freedom of the mind.

rm_jeanquille 42M

10/10/2005 10:05 pm

Your case is not very strange and your are not alone in this situation. You are not so happy with your job/life as they don't fullfill your needs and have a certain "routine" which make you feel bored, even if busy, and on a search of more excitement.
You obviously want more for yourself and said it yourself:

"I want an attractive difference, that can sustain my interest and challenge my intellectual and not be bored easily"

It just up to you to make this difference happen or not, most of the people will say :

"Yes but it's not so simple"

Because they are scared to do the first step on the way to their dream, because they mistrust themself, because they listen to others instead of listening to themself and their heart. Some will just give up, prefering the security they have or following the path that others choice for them (what ever the reason).
Anyway end of the day it must stay your choice, a good or a bad choice, self-prescribed it must be and it must stay but always an experience and something to learn about it.

It is good to have expectations has they are our motor to grow mentaly, sentimentaly and professionnaly but they are also, inevitably, the motor of your frustrations.

What ever the needs or urges we have: we always want more!!!
Some are more or less thirsty for new experience , so here are my questions:

What do you think it will happen when fullfilling your biggest expectation?

Does the satisfaction big enough to continue?

What is an adventure?

When living an adventure, when are you realising you are living one or lived one?

When will it be enough?

What are we really looking for?

Kiss Thisty Mistic

mysticmonty 41F

10/10/2005 10:53 pm

Love questions! My answers.....

What do you think it will happen when fullfilling your biggest expectation?
The one thing that will definitely happen is I'd be so high, with disbelieve that it's actually happening. When it happens, I will absorb the moment and live it. I want time to stand still for me then.

Does the satisfaction big enough to continue?
If I am utterly satisfied, which I'm sure I will be, I will continue. No one is ever satisfied, with anything.

What is an adventure?
An adventure for me, is something that I would dare myself to do, and be completely overwhelmed by it. It must be something different or exciting, makes me anticipate with eagerness, yet I can remain calm and collected to fully enjoy the ride. I want to say, Aaahh...I am so glad I did it, no regrets, what's next? at the end of it.

When living an adventure, when are you realising you are living one or lived one?
I would realise that I'm living it when I'm not engaged with the usual mundane routine that I'm doing everyday, when my mind is fixed on it, thinking and waiting with excitement for it to happen again and for it not to stop. When I cannot guess what'll happen next, knowing it'll be better each time.
I would have lived an adventure when I smile whenever I think about it.

When will it be enough?
I don't know, and I don't think anything is ever enough. Maybe when I'm done searching for adventures or found something, someone to fulfill my every needs and desires.

What are we really looking for?
I'm not sure what YOU are looking for, but I know I'm still seeking for fun and excitement in my reality. I am looking for something that can lasts, long enough to feel what it's like to be living a life, to the fullest, without regrets, not just thinking or saying it but really living it.

Mystic thirsting for an adventure, anyone daring enough to take me on?


rm_jeanquille 42M

10/11/2005 1:47 am

I will be pretentious to say that I know what everybody really want, but most of our eagerness to discover, experience, try, want more, not have enough, take the opportunity to, challenging ourself are for knowing ourself better or looking for ourself, which in my opinion is the purpose of the life, is there any other reason???

Anyway the thing about adventure, what ever it was or think it will be, it is always challenging, it request always something from you, sometimes give the best, sometimes the worst, sometimes have happy ending, sometimes bad ending.

I do scare myself just thinking at this X factor which could have make this or that turning real bad about things that has happen to me (andd sometime it could have been really nothing), but you just forget about this, the time make us remember only the good part or turning the sad part in derision ( unless it is very bad).

"Mystic thirsting for an adventure, anyone daring enough to take me on?"

This look like an invitation or don't know nothing, hey you can come here in Chiang Mai, we just had 3 floods in 1 month and half may be a 4th the day you arrive but surely it is not the kind of adventure you are looking for Sweet Mystic.


P.S: I do think that ride a bike in Thailand is an adventure by itself not without danger......


mysticmonty 41F

10/13/2005 12:33 am

You are so so sad.

Dear folks, I deleted this person's comment, mainly because of his tiny little picture which is so unpresentable in my blog. Not that he has anything interesting to provide us, even his picture did not make the cut. Tsk tsk tsk...

rm_jjtanjung 49M
2 posts
10/13/2005 6:11 pm

Adventure...hmmm, being in the same place as me at the same time but having no idea who one another is?

Just mystery and wonder.

rm_troyx 39M

10/14/2005 4:01 am

Mystic, I think the atttitude that you took i.e. enjoying yourself despite work and at times the shit that life throws at you is a great attitude.

Coldplay is one of my favourite but you ought to check out David Gray, Travis and Jet too. Really cool music.

Anyway I don't believe in this I am head over heels thing just by merely reading one's view. In fact I think the best part is to enjoy yourself to the greatest extend and get into all sorts of adventure that comes along.

My favourite of course a sudden and unplanned shag based on merely pure lust in naughty situations. That and perhaps a good time with your mates at the pub and do crazy things....

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10/17/2005 4:16 am

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Fastsex33 42M
53 posts
10/18/2005 9:20 am

Hmm Mystic... seem like u treat adventure a bit overwhelm... maybe can try achieving the highest mountains... or dive the deepest sea.. or try sky gliding... that will pump up... as for me... the first 2 had complete... awaiting the 3rd... Everytime a person sets a limit.. we try to exceeds it... be one or two level up... So what is your limit?

Take care

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