Ever just have one of those days...  

mysticdreamangel 61F
1119 posts
7/8/2006 3:44 pm

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9/17/2006 5:52 pm

Ever just have one of those days...

...where you wondered why you even got up! I did and am.

Woke up as usual, planning on spending my day productively...working outside...doing some things around the house. You know the typical Saturday by yourself things.

As I started my day the phone rang and it was a family member asking for some computer assistance so being the kind soul that I am I said I would be right over to help. I got there and the problems he was having were none existent so I knew then and there that there was another reason he had requested my presence. In the meantime another family member appeared and I knew I was doomed.

I know their hearts are in the right place but they proceeded to talk to me about very personnel issues...money...my love life, or lack of...the way I'm raising my son...how it was when they grew up...how I should follow their example...

Guess what I did...started to cry and walked out! Really brave of me...lol!

My day took a downward spiral from there and I have been sitting around most of the day wondering why people can't just let me be me. So what I'm not rich, so what my love life sucks in their eyes, so what if the way I raise my son is not the way most single parents do, so what if I'm not like them, and so what if I don't follow their example.

So why do I feel so crappy right now? I know that financially I'll pull through, my love life is improving (met someone, just friends at this point but who knows), my son and I are more than Mother and Son we are friends and I'm proud of that, I don't want to be like them and most of all I don't want to follow their example. So again, why do I feel so crappy?!

I think I feel crappy because once again I didn't stand up for myself. Why is it so damn important that I maintain the persona that they want to see. Why can't I just tell them that money is only a tool...it doesn't buy happiness. Why can't I tell them that my love life is my own and that what they think is love and what I think is love are too different things. Why can't I tell them to butt out when it comes to how I choose to raise my son, that's between he and I isn't it?! And why can't I tell them that for all their money plus some I'm a much better person then they will ever be. The answer, I have a heart and I don't want to hurt them.

So again why do I feel so crappy...ever have a one of those days where you wondered why you even got up? Hopefully tomorrow will be a better one and this mood I'm in will be gone.

Hope your day was a better one...

MDA


LustyTaurus 48M  
21253 posts
7/8/2006 7:08 pm

I'm sorry you've had a crappy day...I hope and will pray that tommorrow is a better one for you...


mysticdreamangel replies on 7/8/2006 8:04 pm:
Thank you LustyTaurus for making me smile! Like you, I hope I have a better day come the sign rise and I hope you have a good one as well!

MDA

docdirk 47M

7/9/2006 1:28 pm

Sadly; those who attempt to help are often the ones who do most harm. Family is especially adept at this. I have tried and tried to overcome the toxic capabilities of my family, and only one thing seems to help...

... caller ID!!!!

Hope your weekend comes to a much more satisfactory conclusion!

Ah, Its you again, Your Angel Feathers and your Blood Stains...


mysticdreamangel replies on 7/9/2006 2:38 pm:
Thank you docdirk! I will take your advise and get that caller ID, even if they would say I can't afford it!

All my best,

MDA

BaconJanusBilge 67M

7/11/2006 10:00 pm

MDA,
Yes, I have had many days like that; I'm glad you met someone; I thought I did, too, but something happened and I got upset and blew it. I guess that my faith in humanity has taken a big fall since my last relationship. I wish you all the best.
Dave


mysticdreamangel replies on 7/12/2006 3:35 pm:
Dave,

I have met someone but we are just friends...that's all I can handle at the present. Sorry I haven't been keeping in touch, but I have been busy taking care of me for a change.

Don't let your last relationship keep you down...you have to much to offer...and know that I am your friend and still want to get to know you.

MDA

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