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My husband called last night. He had a few questions about some things I mentioned regarding the fantasies we talked about. Seems he is getting a little insecure about them now! lol I have a feeling that most of the ones he wants, IE, me with another man, may not be taking place anytime soon. That works for me! I have no problem giving him some of his fantasies as long as they do not compromise me or my feelings and standards. It has been a hard decision, but I guess I am just not ready to join in, and it sounds like he is really having second thoughts. He loved my Erotic Fantasy story though, and I have a feeling that it is one that will happen for him if I find the right person, one who won't mind being 'unknown' for the first time, for I know he will enjoy it and want it again. I have this other fantasy of tying him up with scarves and forcing him to watch me with another woman, but it would be a first time experience for me, so we will have to see.
I had a great time last night on Bootcamp 101! I did not want to leave and go to bed. I really hate going to bed alone, so I put it off for as long as I could, but getting up at 4am every morning makes it hard to stay awake after a certain time.
Anyway, I expect to hear from my hubby today and I plan on telling him that maybe we should hold off on the fantasies right now. I think he will be happy, AND it makes it look like it is MY idea and he is not backing out of it. You know, open mouth, insert foot? Well, I am getting good at removing his foot from his mouth... lol
I hope he does not and will not expect me to leave this site once he is back home this time, for I have become quite attached to it in such a short time and I enjoy the people I am meeting in the forums. Not at all what I expected when I signed up on AdultFriendFinder! I started to post one of my erotic stories in the Articles pages this morning, but when I read through it again, I decided that it was too personal for my husband right now and I should wait until he approved it or not. However, I will be writing more and posting them there! Got to get those points up! lol Plus, I love writing, always have. I used to read like there was no tomorrow, literally, 1-2 books a day, but since I got my computer replaced finally, after a 2 year dry spell, I don't pick them up much anymore.
I don't have any idea who I am talking to or writing to, maybe me, maybe no one in particular, but I know it helps. I have kept a journal off and on since I was in grade school, but let it slack a few years ago. It always helped to put my thoughts and feelings on paper. I seem to be able to express myself easier in print.
Well this is enough for today.
12/19/2005 4:52 am
I respect your honesty, and the open communication between you and your husband. The ability to get that intimate with your desires and be patient as you work through understanding is fantastic. You should be proud. |
It doesn't go that well for everyone...