resting my mind ...  

miz_attitude 53F
237 posts
9/3/2006 7:37 pm

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12/5/2006 12:48 am

resting my mind ...

ok so a lot of people are left wondering WTF by my little message to the ones i have in IM ...
here it is the best way i know how to tell it ...

i have been a reg member of the basement for a good many years now , i have seen ups downs and inbetweens in there...
i have had two on line friends pass away and i cried real tears over the loss of both .. i have seen others leave and yes i cried for the loss of them too ....
i have been real good i figured at keeping my feelings hidden and playing the game that things don't hurt me or affect me in real time , guess what they do and i have finally had the last hurt i want and decided to walk away for a bit and find me again because this has the potential to hurt a lot ...
as of late on line has stopped being fun i always feel like people are trying to play me and i don't want it anymore i am a real person with real feelings and i think many have forgotten that ... and honestly i don't want to become so jaded and cynical that i end up playing the on line games ... i like knowing the person i talk to is real and just there to talk not to twist what is said into their own little drama and/or competition for popularity .... i have never claimed to be miss canada and i don't want to compete with people i thought were friends for the affection and attention of others ...
i want my friends to be happy it is all i have ever said and now i want me to be happy and right now on line is not making me happy .... it is making me forget that people are basically good cause all i am seeing anymore is the pettiness and backstabbing ....
i want to be above that so for a little while anyhow i am taking myself out of them game ... i wish everyone health and happiness and hope all get what they want ~S~ ...
as always ~huggs~
and gone ~smiles~

DizzyKittie81 35F

9/3/2006 7:59 pm

mizzzy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! come baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!!!!!! I miss you already :~(


angelofmercy5 58F
17881 posts
9/3/2006 9:46 pm

Best of luck to you then.

rm_jacina_n 43F
91 posts
9/3/2006 10:30 pm

This one will miss you sooo very much sis, you are girls best and longest friend from the basement and this one only hopes that the scum responsible are proud of their actions.

all my love


P.S. ..... if you give girl the names she'll make their lives a living hell as only a woman can *VBS*

Camzilla 53M
18 posts
9/3/2006 10:44 pm

I will miss you in my lap, as was the case from time to time. But if coming to the basement is not a fun thing for you to do then you are right to stop it. Doesn't mean I have to like it however. Be Well mizzy.

Medusa231968 48F
301 posts
9/4/2006 4:30 am

Come back soon will be missed


Vampyre_Akasha 37F

9/4/2006 9:54 am

I miss you already!!!!!

W/we may not have always seen eye to eye but W/we had some good discussions and good times as well...

I am sorry to see that you too have now been driven away...I know how that feels...I was close to it for the sake of lothos...

I hope you come back to U/us for the real O/ones among U/us miss you totally....

Best wishes

Eternally Yours in the Darkness


rm_ditasfan 44M

9/4/2006 9:55 am

Mizzy i will miss you . Hurry back as we all love ya

LoverofOral1962 54M
1 post
9/5/2006 3:33 am

Mizzy, As a very old reg of the room, I truly understand and feel for you hun, you've known me for a long time and I stayed away for similar reasons, which is why you and others who know me saw me only sporadically at best, I remember fondly the good ole times but it has not been that way for a very long time. I miss the O/ones who I knew and I have missed meeting new O/ones. I have counselled many a sub who was fooled by the wannabe's, some who now classify themselves as regulars and have the balls to try to dictate order in the basement. It is truly sad that W/we as people and grown Men and Women resort to our basest order in the room. I have seen M/many good O/ones go in my many years of coming to the basement, I was online daily back then for hours at a time, I didn't want to leave the comraderie that was the basement back then. I have always known that under your tough persona beat the heart of a lady, that is why I do not allow my sub to enter the room, I do not want nor think it is fair to subject my one to the idiots of the room who think they know what this lifestyle is about and some who should know better come charging into the room like they own it and that their version of bdsm is the end all and be all of the lifestyle, anyone with even a hint of the lifestyle knows that to each their own in this lifestyle, for not all aspects appeal to some/many. I can only wish you my heartfelt desire for you to take the time you need to renew yourself. I have always been an optimist and will try to re'establish myself in the room, I'd love to revel in the basement once more but fear it will not happen, M/many as you know have suffered w/o the leadership of old, not that there are not very sincere and knowledgeable O/ones in the room. I have always feared for the O/ones who truly wished to learn and S/some were bastardized by O/ones who only thought of themselves. Take care luv, and know that I have always been your friend, and always will be. Frank aka LoverofOral1962.

YouNeverSawMe 46M

9/6/2006 11:05 pm

miz knows the place she holds in my heart so this is for everyone else... people, we need to stop all of this hurtful backstabbing and down right meanness. there are no sides, no teams, no gangs. we all are in the basement for one thing, bdsm. if you lie about what you know, admit it and everyone will help guide you to our common goal. if you truthfully know the lifestyle, lead by example. there should be no room for the underhanded lying mean people that use the basement for their sick and twisted little games. they deserve no respect. respect is earned and thus far, there are some that have not earned it. I have had the chance to see the true liars in action, but to save face, they can remain nameless. they have lost my respect and I can honestly say that they will forever be labeled as a liar until the day they admit it. people may come and people may go but its the regulars that keep the basement a friendly escape to the rigors of everyday life.

miz, you have my IM and i will always be there for you as you were for me in my trying times. I luv ya miz and miss you dearly.

your friend
Matthew (YNSM)

Suicidia 50F

9/6/2006 11:17 pm

Hey!!! And just where the heck do you think you're going???? Who's gonna cheer me up now? Who's gonna be the one to laugh at my terrible jokes, to hug me when I am down and to kick me up the backside when I step out of line?? You can't do this to us.... come back bitch queen from hell!!!!!

- love ya really you old dope!

rm_Melciber 61M
214 posts
9/9/2006 4:27 pm

I miss you miz A

___desires___ 51F

9/10/2006 6:21 am and lass were one of the first ones to welcome me to the basement when i first started coming. i personally will miss you, your wit and charm....and "attitude". i hope when you feel better about the basement that you will return. everyone will not always agree--and disputes will continue--but it is the ones that have been there the longest that offer the support and guidance that i need. i have found many good friends in the basement, and have found it to be refreshing to visit. please come back, and don't worry about the ones that bug you--just put them in iggy and go on. thank you again for accepting me in the basement, and i look forward to your return in the near future. samantha (desires)

DizzyKittie81 35F

9/11/2006 5:10 am

come baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack mizzy come baaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i miss you still come baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!!!!!!

*crys in a corner*


safetydance123 51F
145 posts
9/12/2006 8:00 pm

Miz, darlin - I'm glad you are a real person with real feelings! I'm so sorry for your losses...I hope you won't be gone a long time, You were my first freind in the basement - I loved your "topics", I wish there was more BDSM talk in there now....we had some really great sharing in there some nights, about how we felt, and I miss you miz.

I'm new to the basement. You helped me learn to be safe miz. You steer'd me away from trouble early on and there is not hardly enough of that to be heard...So I'll keep asking questions, and maybe when you come back you'll be proud of me. I'm changing too... I miss you miz. Be well.

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