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Have you ever wanted to just quit your family? Well, i've thought that several times and now I really think i'm going too. My family is the most disfunctional family ever!!
Take my mom, she couldn't have children so she adopted. Now there is nothing wrong with that, but some people are just really meant not to have children. She is a quack. She has a nervous break down every other holiday for attention.
This year is Christmas's turn. I informed her that I will not be attending Christmas this year. I just bought my first house and I want to have Christmas here. Oh my god! It's the end of the world. Not only did she start screaming at me, she started crying.
Now I understand that holidays are for family, but this woman made my life as a child miserable- as she did with my two sisters. She beat us black and blue. She played the trippiest mind games imaginable and she was an absolute control freak!
Now that me and my sisters are older she wants to be our best friends, but talk about the others behind their backs. My middle youngest sister has voted her dead. And my youngest sister still tries to get along with her when it's convenient. I tried for the sake of my children. They love her and didn't do anything, but there's only so much a person can take.
The boys in my family are Saints. My three brothers could do no wrong. they could get caught smoking pot in the house and they would slide by with a stern lecture. My sister got pregnant at 15 and my mom choked her while she was pregnant!! Then she kicked her out of the house and kept all her clothes and shoes. Then she shunned me for taking her in. Um, hello-she was a stupid kid. I didn't like her being pregnant at her age, but shit happens.
My father always stood by and never said anything. she treated him like crap. She still does and to this day he still takes it. I never understood that. I was daddy's girl and she used to hate that which made things worse for me when I was young.
My brothers all have their heads so far up her ass it isn't even funny. They can watch her ranting and raving over nothing and still take her side. They have no balls. They're afraid if they stand up to her they'll be cut off. She pays for everything for them. Anything they want they get.
So anyways, I told my mom I was doing Christmas in my own house this year and she flipped. She went on and on about how I didn't love her and I was a selfish bitch. I finally got tired of arguing with her and just said "Why should I"? "What have you ever done for me"? My choosing to have a Christmas at home with my own children instead of traveling all over the damn world is my choice. My choice has been taken away from me for so long. It's my turn. I want to be happy and make my own decisions-i'm 28 yrs old for crying out loud! I'm allowed!!
I'm sorry that I went on and on like this. I guess I just needed to get it out. Thanks.
11/5/2005 2:28 pm
I'm sorry you got family members so selfish they don't let you be you. Just stick to your guns and don't give in. Some parents are the children and must learn that you mean what you say. Mine is not as uncool and heavy, but My ex-mother in law wanted the kids to go to her neighborhood of Halloween. Luckily, she's easy to communicate with and understood that me going there hurt in way... It reminded me of my failed marriage. I felt more like a winner where the kids and I did go, but I know, I'll have to make smart compromises in bigger holidays. |
Big girl Elanore Roosevelt said, no one can make you feel inferior without your consent. So don't stand for that crap, my sweet, from her, your hubby, noone (not even sweet lil ole me).
Best wishes and love your profile and pics. Oh, and "hi" ^_^
12/1/2005 4:22 pm
go on & on all you want, misty. this is the place to do it.|