missingocean2002 70F
10 posts
7/5/2006 9:10 am

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7/6/2006 7:05 am


Last night, the Fourth of July, I finally went to a firewroks event for the first time in four years. It had bittersweet memories for me, but as I watched the fireworks I felt pain of loss of my son and also of relationships that failed one way or the other.
I also realized I couldn't change the events that happened. I am learning to try to live again after the losses in my life and want very much to find a person to share my otherside of life with.
I am and have always been a pretty good wife, mother and friend. I have have given all I can to relationships. Being a good wife was what I thought I was suposed to be. Well that didn't work, so I am living my life as I see it needs to be for me. Stepping out of the norm is scary and yet exciting. I am very cautious and may seem a bit standoffish, but I am not. Just as friendly as I can be with this crazy world we live in! Maybe losing a child to murder and failing marriage and other realtionships make you gun shy and you do learn who to trust and who not to. I know I am making some good friends here and enjoy them very much.

rm_wetfingeraz 53F
3012 posts
7/5/2006 12:03 pm

Good for you! Strong people choose to live. You go, girl!

rm_will520112 61M

7/11/2006 10:12 pm

Bearing the loss of a child in such a manner and still having a smile on your face says a lot about the inner strength of your heart and soul. I admire your stamina and outlook.

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