My love is dying  

micahbiguns 50M
1308 posts
3/20/2006 2:28 pm

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My love is dying

God but life is so unfair, after 21 years apart we reunite only to find out today that she has inoperable cancer and they have given Carol 6 weeks to live. She refuses to marry me now I have waited to long. I dont think I can take this. it hurts to bad

With gaping wounds my heart a dying
In my ears a lonley song the winds a crying
hurt and so alone my souls is sighing
for relief from this damnable hell

With teary eyes our time together I rehash
in bitter recall my memory does flash
at hopes and dreams that have turned to ash
for my sweet love I weep to no avail

Seeking a place so dark still and deep
relief can only be found if in sleep
If I could only find myself and not weep
Maybe then I could see beyone this vail



NawtieBBWwantsit 45F
70 posts
3/20/2006 7:25 pm

Oh I am so sorry to read about your pain.
If you love her, you'll be there for her. No matter how much it hurts. I would give everything I posess and all of my limbs just to have 5 minutes with the only man i have ever loved. to have him alive and breathing on earth once more.
Cherish the remaining time you have with her.
Show her she is loved until the end.
Those memories will last a lifetime.
Something is better than nothing. i have my memories now. I cherish them and you will too.


demonicsexkitten 41F
10671 posts
3/20/2006 7:33 pm

i'm so sorry to read of this may you find joy and togetherness in every moment you have remaining together. best wishes for you both.

*HUGS*

-dsk.


runzwithknives 59F

3/20/2006 7:43 pm

Yes, you can and you have to. For her. And for you. Live it with her now in to the fullest. Without guilt and without regret. You will have plenty of time to greive later.

Hugs,
Rosa


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
3/22/2006 4:41 am

Sweetie, you need to just hold her hand, love her, be there for her I have a friend who went through this with his fiance. He was always there for her, yep it almost killed him when she passed away. Then it was his turn to greive. Even though there is no license to say you are married. In your hearts, soul, mind, bodies and spirit you are Since your married, live the rest of her life to the fullest and through her eyes

keeping you and her in my prayers

hugs and smiles


micahbiguns 50M

3/22/2006 9:39 pm

To all who stopped by and commetted..... THANK YOU. I will not be putting much time into my blog hope you can understand at this point I just feel empty like a ghost ratteling around in a big old house


TTigerAtty 62M

3/23/2006 12:12 pm

God, I am so sorry to read this! I really don't know what to say that can be of comfort to you. I think I will just come back later with a prayer for you and Carol. You are both in my thoughts and prayers.


TTigerAtty 62M

3/23/2006 12:30 pm

Micah ... I came back to pass along something that I only hope will be of some small comfort to you at this time. A few weeks ago I posted something about my ex-wife's battle with colon and liver cancer. Though divorced when this occurred, it was still hard for me to accept. My daughter and I agonized over this as we watched her mother suffer through surgery and chemotherapy treatments in a vain attempt to arrest the cancer. I know how low you must now be feeling. I hope our story and a prayer that I wrote then will comfort you in some small way. You can find them at Help Me Pass Through This Wilderness Of Despair. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Carol.


TTigerAtty 62M

3/23/2006 12:31 pm

Sorry ... The link is Help Me Pass Through This Wilderness Of Despair.


TTigerAtty 62M

3/23/2006 12:39 pm

Micah ... Can't get the post link thing to work right so let me give you the date of the post on my blog. It is March 6, 2006.


micahbiguns 50M

3/24/2006 9:39 am

Thank you TTiger it was a beautiful and careing post


_Safira 53F
11260 posts
3/24/2006 11:52 am

Micah ~ You have my thoughts and prayers, as does Carol. If I can do anything further please do not hesitate to reach out. Caress knows how to contact me. *gentle hugs* Safira

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