Temptations  

mcys1964 57M
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4/22/2006 5:43 pm

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Temptations


At time I encounter temptations in my life. Many times,I can walk away. Knowing what's at stake.Without giving them a second thought,I must know it must be done.What makes me wonder many times. At time's I think I am strong.All of sudden temptation breaks my norm.Why is it that life can make me resolve strong.Yet at other times make me lose my core? I find that I must decide,when this occurs in life,whether I want to let my guard down,take chances at what's not norm!Why must I reach out for something that I know is'nt mine. Why ask for passion,if deep inside my heart know it's wrong. I have encounter,temptation in my life. Look at the beauty desire it,yet know that all I did is wrong. For even though everything looks good and I know what it feel like. I must at times scarifice,only because it is wrong.


mcys1964 57M
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4/24/2006 12:58 pm

I have lived long enough to know loss,hurt,humiliation and betrayals. But i don't want to store them in my memory. It is just so much emotional clutter that can metastasise and grow toxic if i don't clear them out. It also tend to become ugly,with my un-resolved rage and hatreds. It's better to remember those times that i had (inadvertently) slight others or hurt them badly. I wish i could say sorry to them all. But,of course,i am being vain-I think they still remember me, when more likely than not, they don't. They have move on with their lives. i had started to lived by myself from now onwards, with more space of my own. What can i say, i have become quite the idiot. There are very few things that i can can do on my own. Friends and buddies tell me,it not too late to get married again,but i still feel the hurts and pains from my past married. But while i long for a companion,i fear my vulnerability. I don't want to die from apoptosis.I want to stay useful to the larger community. So i remain hopeful and perhaps some day ,i will met a lady of my faith and be my spouse for the next half of my life.


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