What's A Girl To Do?????  

marywannado 43F
1776 posts
7/27/2006 2:09 pm

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8/3/2006 3:03 pm

What's A Girl To Do?????

Hope everyone enjoyed my little cake recipe. Ya might get a little drunk when ya make it tho. Could anyone actually read the directions??

It's just the way that I have felt lately, I figured it was time to put something a little different on. I know this is supposed to be a place to share your feelings and thoughts, but holy fuck, I'll be scaring everyone away soon. Sorry again. Lately that's all I have felt is sorry, jesus. Sorry about the mistakes I've made during my life, sorry for the stupid things that I've done, all my idiotic choices I've tried to make for my family. Sorry for just about everything. The only things that I haven't been sorry for is my wonderful man and our two beautiful boys. He must be wonderful to put up with all the crazy shit that I've done. Anyways, maybe I've just been going thru some kind of phase or what's that one thing called, "a mid-life crisis",, maybe I'm just goin freakin nuts. About the only person that I've ever had for a friend is my man, I've never really had any friends throughout my entire life, so maybe all I need is just someone different to actually talk to. Who knows... But anyways, I'm gonna try to settle down on my crazy depressing shit for awhile, I ain't promising nothin but I think I need to try not to think about the crazy shit that goes thru my mind everyday. Like I said, I'll try...

What's a girl supposed to do to get her mind off all that stuff anyways???

Cozy_Red 50F

7/27/2006 3:01 pm

Blog blog blog....gets my mind off the crazy stuff . I tend to over think stuff (just ask my last bf). haha

Ive also found that what I lack in friends, the lord has made up to me with letting me have gkids.

Its all working out like its suppose to no matter how much we worry, so live it up girl, and lay your troubles down!


marywannado 43F

7/27/2006 3:21 pm

Thanks for the advice, I'll keep that in mind,, it's just hard to blog when my b/f is screwin with his blog, but what can ya do...

stonerandsea 48M/50F

7/27/2006 6:46 pm

Mary.....I totally understood the recipe, but maybe that's cause I was sippin the tequilla while reading it

I know exactly what you mean, I've been going through the same kinda stuff in my head and heart lately......maybe it is a mid-life crises, or maybe it's just part of growing up, I can't seem to figure it out either....but it's hard when your only friend is your other half, we can't always burden them with our crazy thoughts, so if you ever need to vent and don't want to blog it, we could talk! I'll send ya some mail with my .....just remember to keep smiling and you'll be alright

Big huggs to ya


strongelk2006 53M

7/27/2006 9:25 pm

You sound like my exwife,,,,,she going though some shit right now too. She has to make up her mind on if she is going to marry her 27 year old boyfriend,,,or not.He don't want me around my son's,,,because he is their Dad now. The only thing is my oldest son is 16,,,and my ex is 41. He's a real asshole,,,he put a restaining order on me ,,so I can't see my sons,,,they live with him ,,,so I can't came in contact with them,,,because he lives with them.



curious082385 31F
4925 posts
7/28/2006 2:08 am

"...I've never really had any friends throughout my entire life, so maybe all I need is just someone different to actually talk to..."

I know I'm on the other side of the country, but....
<--- friend if you need one

toothysmile 50M
16515 posts
7/28/2006 2:26 am

keep smiling. you have a wonderful blog.
a sweet kiss for you.

Sweetpickles69 47F

7/28/2006 6:56 am

Here's a Hug! I'll be your friend! I don't have many female friends, don't trust most of them. The way I deal with this shit is to blog like everyone else! You can't bottle it up forever, It'll take it's toll eventually. Hang in there! At least you have a man & kids that love you! I wish I could have kids.

Peace, and Blog On,


Looking0100 54M

7/28/2006 10:43 pm


Wow! You really are feeling very down on yourself. So sad and lonely.

What's a girl supposed to do to get her mind off all that stuff anyways???
Just take a look at my second response to your last post

You mentioned a lot of SORRY's. I know that you have no reason to be sorry about making friends here at the blogs. You have no reason to be sorry about pouring out your heart and soul into your posts. You have no reason to be sorry for writing the wonderful poetry that you have here.

Jon C.

company_od 42M
70 posts
7/29/2006 9:51 pm

Make no excuse for expressing yourself. It is your blog, your time you spend, your life and experience you share. If someone doesn't wish to read then why should it matter what they think? If someone is here they will be here because they wish to read what you think. First time visitor so I had to read up before posting but I haven't seen anything you wrote that was to f'd up and you seem to know where you stand. Take care, stand strong.

marywannado 43F

7/31/2006 7:47 am

Thanks everyone for the advice, I really appeciate it, I'll try to keep my comments all caught up this time...

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