What Once Was  

rm_marc44054 63M
1061 posts
8/11/2006 5:51 pm
What Once Was


Shall never be again. Not sure who first said that. But I have been facing that reality lately. It's been in the back of my mind for three years but I just refused to admit it was true. The lonely days, the lonesome nights, one rolling into the other, day after day, night after night. I just have not been able to put these feelings into words.
Nothing in this world can take the place of being with someone. Sharing ups and downs, finding safety and security in each other's arms. It's been a long time since I had someone special in my life and I am to blame for that. It's not the hurt or anger or heartbreak from the past. It is my refusal to settle for something less than what I want.
And that refusal is the problem if things are looked at realistically. I am no longer of the age or health or wealth to establish a type of relationship I have been used to.
So, while my head tethers me to reality, my heart is anchored in nostalgia. There is only one way out.

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