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Well another week nearly over, and I'm still not sure where I am in this journey called life.
Yesterday I had the worst back pain, sure someone swapped my back in the night for someone twice my age, feeling better today though, so think it must of been stress related.
Suppose to be going out tonight with the husband, he has even offered to take me to the theatre or cinema, both things he hates doing, to him a night out is in a pub and consists of him drinking until he can drink no more, with me always being the driver.
What I think we really should do, is find a quite pub and make him listen to the real me, let me tell him a few of my secrets if I dare, and then see if he still wants things to work out, I swear he really doesn't know the woman he is married to.
But what should I tell him, or talk about?
Fantasies - I once tried this before and as the only fantasy he says he has, was me, it didn't really give me much of an opener for mine. I did once try to talk to him about my interest in BDSM and he laughed, so I gave up.
1st Love - He hates this guy, why I don't know he can only explain it as jealousy, but he talks to his ex's and it doesn't bother me.
Kids - I have already told him what he needs to put right there.
Future - I'm not sure where my journey is going, I do have some things that I want to do still in this life, but not sure how to make them happen.
What Scares me - Being on my own with this man who I feel I have nothing in common with, when all the kids have left home.
Heck perhaps we should just go to the cinema, then we wont have to talk to each other, would be alot easier.
10/7/2005 3:42 pm
Kat I think part of the problem, is that I have enjoyed being on my own with the kids, ok there have been a couple of hitches like the car and a burst water pipe, which I rang him about, the water pipe he was no help with at all, but the car I did need him for, but Im sure I would of managed if I had thought about it before I rang him.|