It's a Long, Long way from There to Here!  

macker1965 60M/42F
851 posts
3/18/2006 10:50 am

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It's a Long, Long way from There to Here!

Macker in contemplative mood. I warn you this could turn into a rant! So if you haven't got stamina, are easily bored or just tire easily maybe you should switch off now.

O.k. are you cumfy. No? Well go and get yourself a drink. A beer, a Guinness, a nice Jameson & ice, or a coffee (try one of my Irish Coffees; I'm famous for them!).

So are you settled down now. O.k. here we go; lets see where this takes us!

Been reflecting. I'm 49 years of age. Not a memorable age to reflect or anything but I'm almost a year on AdultFriendFinder so just trying to get my head around the type of person I am, the type of person I am now and the type of person I used to be. How much have I changed, I don't mean just since I joined AdultFriendFinder, but over the years.

Some of my earliest memories of my awareness of sexuality, the opposite sex, have come to mind.

As a kid, like so many kids, I believed in fairy tale endings. The princess was pure, kind, beautiful, and as a pre-adolescent that was what my dream woman (princess) looked like.

During my teenage years I changed. The sexuality seemed to take on more importance; but those fairy tale princess qualities were still an attraction.

I remember having a crush on this red-haired girl who was a couple of years older but just seemed to fit the bill. She was beautiful, long red hear, had a lovely smile and just seemed to be everything I'd ever dreamed of. Was she? I don't know; never got a chance to find out.

As I moved through my life the fairly tale aspect of what I've been looking for seems to have taken on lesser significance and the sex seems to be more important. Or is it?

Maybe, like so many of us, I assumed that everything to do with sex was something less than pure, a little seedy, something very base!

But who says that should be the case. Maybe that beautiful princess I'm looking for can exist, but maybe she enjoys sex too. Maybe she can be erotic, sensual, sexy and yet pure and kind.

In many ways I think's it's our definitions of what's good and bad (and the assumption that anyting to do with sex is something less than pure) that's at the core of how we think, how we judge, how we judge ourselves.

Told you this would be a rant; a marathon.

If you've hung in there and are wondering what the hell I'm talking about don't worry. I'm not sure where this was going myself.

But anyway when I reflect where I've come from, from my early years, to where I am now; my reflection is:

It's a long, long way from there to here,
O it's a long, long way,
It gets further day by day,
It's a long, long way from there to here.

lol Macker

sassybelle21 32F
13313 posts
3/18/2006 11:04 pm

Life is a long long journey. We change as to adapt to our surroundings and also because of our past experiences. We might not know if tomorrow is going to ever come for us so living the moment will be the second best thing to do

angelofmercy5 58F
17881 posts
3/19/2006 9:49 pm

We do adapt as life gets long,
But somehow our dreams are just as strong.
Look into my eyes and you will see.
The princess still lives inside of me!

_CoffeeNoCream_ 52F

3/20/2006 12:14 am

One Irish Coffee, please !!

liefs C

hugs4uagain 39F

3/22/2006 7:46 am

lifes definatly a big long journey hunni but hang in there u might just find ur princess!

hugs xxxxxxxx

HBowt2 58F

3/27/2006 2:02 am

just thinking these things myself...

rm_goddess1946 105F
13518 posts
4/9/2006 5:48 pm

I've learned that the labels serve...
and so does the judgment...the question simply is *how*?

I don't do that so much anymore, btw....

Just a little food for thought.............
If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you...

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