Chapters in Life  

lustcurious42 56F
257 posts
7/22/2006 12:19 pm

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7/30/2006 12:03 pm

Chapters in Life

It's been a busy week......a weekend in Portland last weekend. Kids have been gone alot this week, so I've almost forgot what my own bed feels like. And now all the kids are leaving me again until tomorrow so I'm going to load up the truck, throw in some float tubes and grab the bf. I'm feeling really good. I feel contented. I told one of my kids that I'm seeing him again and it went over ok. The hard one is still to come.....I hinted at it with him and I'm not sure how it will go over. I hope he can put his feelings aside and realize that I am happy. If he is to adamant about me not seeing him, we'll just need to take it slower and give it time. But I just can't give him up. I still have thoughts of hoping I'm not the fool with the old bf, but we've had some pretty deep conversations lately. We've even discussed our "game" and how we both have a history of playing it. I feel a honesty and a realness coming from him that I didn't feel as much in the past. It's hard to describe but I am feeling like he has missed me as much as I missed him over the years. Maybe we both have learned to treat this love with more respect than we did in the past. We've talked about whether we'll play with others, like at clubs and stuff. I think we've pretty much decided just each other but left it open enough to discuss if one of us is feeling the need for variety. We've even had forever talks about expectations, being there for each other in old age, that kind of stuff. Talk about foreign stuff to me. And did I mention that my voice is going hoarse from screaming? Geesh, I gotta get back into sexual shape!!! Damn, that man can please me to no end. I've been staying away from chatting with other guys on here, been trying to mind my p's and q's. It's hard for me. I'm a flirt. But I also think I realize that I have had my share of men over the years and something about this one completes me. Have any of you ever felt that? So, I need to not jeopardize it by doing something silly.
Hope ya all enjoy the weekend........

goodatpoetry2 66M
12386 posts
7/24/2006 10:33 pm

It sounds as if things are going well. The other kid will probably come around, in time. Wishing you the best, girl.

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