well let me tell you about brenda....  

lushgirl69 49F
329 posts
11/14/2005 4:07 pm

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3/29/2006 4:26 pm

well let me tell you about brenda....

she and i wouldnt have survived childhod without one another
neglectful and pilledout schitzophrenic mom
two little girls in a poverty environment
we spoke our own language
i grew faster so we looked like twins
they even dressed us the same

two peas in a f****ed up pod

young raging mom

one girl multiple personalities.....older...got the brunt
younger girl disassociative,,,,,thus the masochistic streak

hard core punk rock bitch killed two months before finally getting a forensic psych degree

my doppleganger GONE

TopFisher 63M

11/15/2005 3:19 am

Think about this one for a moment before answering.

What do we mean, REALLY mean by someone having "baggage"?

You survived such an upbringing. You are now 38 yrs old! YOU have by now learned how to be a real person in this society. Whee is of no matter today, Once you become famous it will make for a good headline. Today? It does not matter. Not a bit.

You know what? YOU are not the only kid in America that had a tough life when young. YOU are not the only one that had a parent or parents that could care less for their children. YOU are not the only child that was forced to grow up way too soon and care for siblings and such. YOU are but ANOTHER one!

Phuke it!

That water flowed under the bridge a very long time ago right?

I'm more than willing to hear you once on the subject. But as I listin I put all in a box and it will stay there until some time it needs to be revisited. Severa years at the soonest.

YOU are not really so different in that so many of us desire to carry all this shit in the open and on our sleeve. But a time really does come to put it away, quite pointing fingers, and move on with OUR own life!

You already know this, but for some reason still desire to hang on to yesterday. Which of course should have different, you missed out on things, sure you did, but you were not alone in doing so. Others also missed out on alot of their young life as the direct rewult of parents that did not care enough when we were young. OK Life sucks more for some of us than others.

My mom killed my dad! No not as directly as your sis met her fate, but surely as one can be she killed him. Mostly a little each and every day they occupied the earth as man and wife. But for sure in the end, she somehow managed to snuff out his life. As a total invalid I might add.

Still today she is the only mother I will ever have. She is a bitch of bitches. She could teach bitchdom to anybody. She is too smart with nothing to do. But she is indeed a total bitch, and one to be recokened with at all times. But she is also my mother. That is the level of respect she gets from her two remaining children today. Not close at all, just around and talking.

Learn to get over yourself. box it forget it. YOU are the one with a life to forge for YOU. Such begins today. Can YOU handle it?

My bet is you can. With work you can!



rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
456 posts
11/16/2005 1:28 am

You really need to forgive and let go of the anger .... anger eats at the soul and will consume the angry. I am sorry that your sisters life was cut short but that may have been a result of the way she lived it, KARMA .... move past the anger and you will find happiness waiting.

rm_Jet_Hed 57M

11/21/2005 9:47 pm

Wow, I am so sorry for your loss. Just for identity's sake, I lost an oldest brother to suicide back in 89, but not before he ran over my dad attempting to kill him in late 81, just before my mom expired in early 82. Greg was Scizophrenic (however it is spelled), diagnosed by the USN back in the mid 70s. Crazy household, and I am one of the resulting people. Dad is gone now, back in 2001. I have an oldest sister at large in St Louis somewhere, drunk, nuts. She has been exposed to the solution but doesn't want it.
Anyway, just wanted to share a bit. I know some pain and some confusion. I move on, but it is always in an undercurrent I guess. For brief moments now and then, alone, I get real heavy waves of anxiety? worry? fear? self pity? not disabling, but funky. Then I shake it off, review what I need to be doing next and go do it. Kind of like the nike ad, you know? God Speed my friend! And welcome to Dallas!
By the way, I am late into the conversation, I know, funky, but what's with the Tranny talk?
JH (man, looking for woman)

rm_Jet_Hed 57M

11/21/2005 9:50 pm

oh by the way lush? I am only a std member now. If you would want to contact me my e-mail and chat is AdultFriendFinder
might want to put sum kinda blurb in the subject line about AdultFriendFinder?
Thanks! JH

Cash_Apps 53M

11/30/2005 11:27 am


Phischman63 53M

12/1/2005 8:34 am

Wow...glad you've made it this far,keep persevering,a day at a time.

rm_DICKb4 53M
4 posts
12/17/2005 1:34 am


lushgirl69 49F

12/17/2005 9:19 am

cumsock? that's flattering.

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