April  

lucky_lady15 52F
28 posts
4/1/2006 3:33 pm

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4/22/2006 2:23 pm

April


Well it is the beginning of April..the month I dread the most....but I am sitting here right now almost in tears..on that border of wanting to burst into tears but holding it in. My mother in law has always been a wonderful woman...always there when we needed her. I have always felt shund in the family. My brother in law and sister in law have been divorced now for almost 10 years. But she is still looked at with more respect in the family then I am...and it hurts. No matter what I do or what I say I always feel like my feelings are pushed aside. I have tried to explain this to my husband but he just doesnt get it. One xmas I was blue...my mom had passed away and it was the first year without her. So I wasnt really up to doing a big dinner but i did anyway. My in laws were invited but turned us down saying they were going to have a quiet dinner at home. No big deal.....wrong!!!!.....we had taken the kids down xmas day to visit and there the house was full of family...including my Ex sister in law. I couldnt hold the tears back so i excused myself and went to sit in the car while I cried. Hubby came out and I told him I wanted to go home. So he gathered the kids nad we left. I knew he was hurt by it too because all of his brothers were there with their kids and the Ex sister in law was there but his mom never once phoned to ask us.

Well she called that night to "check" on me. I refused to speak to her because I was still so upset. Hubby told her what I was feeling and how he felt but things havent changed. I just feel like they havent accepted me into the family after 14 years of marriage and almost 25 years together with hubby as he was my high school sweetheart. I just give up. Hubby says not to let it bother me but it does....

Anyway..ty for listening..*S*


free2chose2 66F

4/1/2006 6:32 pm

Hi Lucky lady, you know sometimes you have to take people where they are and not where you want them to be, lower your expectations of these idiots. They're not worth your tears.

Don't worry, be Happy


lucky_lady15 52F

4/2/2006 5:46 pm

hey girl how are you..been awhile. hope mom is ok


free2chose2 66F

4/9/2006 8:21 am

Mom fell, surgery Tues on elbow

Don't worry, be Happy


lucky_lady15 52F

4/17/2006 4:22 pm

oh damn girl.....keep me posted...btw I just love the new pic you have posted on your profile......very nice girly


free2chose2 66F

4/19/2006 7:11 am

thanks, actually," girlie" is my childhood nickname-she's in rehab, visited with her in dialysis this morning

Don't worry, be Happy


free2chose2 66F

4/22/2006 8:03 am

she's improving daily, should come home soon

Don't worry, be Happy


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