I found her. It's her, I would recognize her anywhere.  

lostatsea34 46M
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8/19/2005 11:50 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

I found her. It's her, I would recognize her anywhere.

I haven't met her yet, but it is her. I just hope she doesn't think I am some kind of freak or something.

Ok, here's the deal....You know how I have been ranting on here, pretty much every post. Well, I wish I could delete them all. I can, but that wouldn't help. It needs to be undone.

I have been very frustrated with my experience on this site, and I realized when I saw her profile, that it wasn't the site or the people on it. It is me. It's my fault that I got so angry about the shallowness of this entire endeavor. So, to anyone who may have been offended in my previous posts, I sincerely apologize. I understand that it is not your fault. I didn't understand that you are just doing what you do, and that I was the one that was jacked up all along. I was looking for the wrong things. I was trying to be like you. I can't. You know, I have sent out hundreds of emails and messages and probably to the same people over and over again. I honestly wouldn't know, I am the epitome of the absent minded professor. I call it my Ozzy moments. SHAaarrrrooonnnnn!

SO there it is, I have found my other half. I wondered where I left that. And if you are reading this, and you know who you are. I am not trying to put any pressure on you. You owe me nothing. I would just like the privilage of getting to know you better. You have such thoughtful eyes. There is a lot going on in there. I can see it, but I can't quite discern what it is. That is ok though. I am not supposed to. I am a guy. I will never figure her out. I will never truly understand, but what most people don't realize is that it isn't about the answers. It's about the questions.

I am done looking. I am done with this site. I have found what I was looking for, and I am finished. If it doesn't work out, then so be it, but there are no more that I am interested in. Just one. I am done. I am setting my autorenew to off and it will stay that way. I would rather be alone than to settle for someone who is less than what I want and need. Maybe there is another one like her out there, if so, yeah me. If not, whatever.
Well, I feel a great sense of relief. That is, believe it or not, a huge weight lifted off me. I thought I was going crazy trying to figure the whole relationship thing out. I got it. I get it now, Ding, fries are done.

Whew, now that that is over, I think I will eat Spam. (Society for the Protection of Artificial Meat) heh heh heh

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