IRONY.....GENIE IN A BOTTLE............  

lonesomefornow2 65F
102 posts
7/6/2006 6:27 am

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7/9/2006 2:22 am

IRONY.....GENIE IN A BOTTLE............


YES,,CLOSER TO TRUTH THAN PREVIOUSLY THOUGHT,,LOLOL without the special effects of magic,,yes ,i have lived a genie in a bottle life in many ways,,not interested in much outside my own space and home,,secure in a womb of my own making..to my way of thinking,,it is time for birthing..grow up to a different tune and music but mine not one chosen for me. i have learned what is necessary to be an adult,,,been responsible for all my sins and not ready to give in or up,, on being a whole human being..i can see where i have been stunted in my growth and am doing the only thing i know how to do,,learn and change,adapt with the information i seek..

rm_graybeard25 54M
7 posts
7/6/2006 7:27 am

Your words bring an unsettling feeling to my heart. I wish there was some way to give you the hug that would make both of us feel better.
I'm a man of words, but I don't have any that would make you feel the way I wish you would or could right now.
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
GB


lonesomefornow2 65F

7/6/2006 9:54 am

Thank you sir,,but it is okay,,do not waste any sympathy on me,, "Don't cry over what cannot be changed",has always been my attitude,that hasn't changed,so I am not feeling sorry for myself or life..I wouldn't change a thing that has happened to me,even the bad ones,,it is only the things that haven't happened for me that i regret and trying to capture,now..like my akwardness around my own gender,those kinds of things i have no refrence for...wasn't around many..and outside my profession,sewing,there still isn't any in my life now..Being by nature a loner wasn't important,as i get older it is more so,,no idea why,,it just is...


outdoorman94 47M

7/6/2006 3:56 pm

I have to say we all have to adapt to many things and it seems your doing just fine .This is what makes the world go around.Keep up the good work!


rm_graybeard25 54M
7 posts
7/7/2006 5:59 am

Caring for another is never a waste. I'm sorry you feel that way.
Good luck


lonesomefornow2 65F

7/9/2006 2:22 am

I think you misunderstood my comment,,sympathy is a wasted emotion unless it produces something OTHER than self pity.. i could have a dozen people crying in their beer over shit but it would not fix a thing, i just happen to believe in attitude adjustments rather than pity -parties as a solution..to the overload of " feelings " Caring is not a waste,,but the fostering of unhealthy dependence on feeding it trama to stir it up and keep it going is a waste..offer something that will help not pull you into the same abyss..perhaps.i appreciate your concern and it does touch my heart that you would feel anything at all for a stranger,i was trying to stop an emotional ball from growing any larger......and turning it into something else altogether....


rm_graybeard25 54M
7 posts
7/10/2006 6:35 am

Just for the record, I was not placing a beer under your eyes to collect your tears, nor was I adjusting the position of mine. I was simply offering a "coaster" to collect either the overflow or the condensation from the internal cold liquids.
Why would I do this? Why do you think?
Your answer might help me better understand.
Thanks

GB


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