lissi888888 52F
1330 posts
8/31/2006 8:16 am

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9/9/2006 2:16 pm



Frightened of him
Scared to care even now
Does he see that?
I feel so much
I want him
Pine for his touch
So unsure of myself
Unsure of him
The emotions skew
They run rampant

But when I'm with him
It's all right
It's all good
I am sure he wants me too
I am sure of myself
I don't wonder at all
Been hurt so much before
But he is not them
He will never be them
I know that

I hurt him with words
I know it at the time
But the facts remain
I did it again
It's not fair
He has shown me
He does want me
Why do I do that?
I cry over it

Have to move on now
Go beyond the past
Will he wait for that?
Or will I make him hate me
Push him away with my insecurities
Create a chasm
I am but a silly girl alone
Trying to break out
Break free of these bonds
The garbage from before

He speaks
He's still here
Not going away
He knows I'm sorry
He will come again
I will get stronger
I will become me again
He says it all takes time
He accepts me as I am
We'll get through it

By: Me
August 31, 2006

Passion247000 46F
3195 posts
8/31/2006 12:31 pm


countryheart_71 45F
8082 posts
8/31/2006 4:05 pm

If he feels that it is worth it, he will be patient and be by your side.


lissi888888 52F
1401 posts
8/31/2006 4:14 pm

Thanks Passion......you are so sweet

lissi888888 52F
1401 posts
8/31/2006 4:57 pm

    Quoting countryheart_71:
    If he feels that it is worth it, he will be patient and be by your side.
countryheart...you are right hon.

lissi888888 52F
1401 posts
9/9/2006 2:16 pm

    Quoting Pheonix_Dragon:
    Personal obstacles... or demons. We all have them. Your feelings are not uncommon... For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin--real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.-- Alfred D. Souza
pheonix...thank you. That is such a better way to look at it.

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