The jerk parade continues...  

lil_fellatrix 29F
43 posts
9/14/2005 12:58 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

The jerk parade continues...

ARRRGGGGGHHHH!!!! I get back to my room, log on, check my mail box, and find a message from an asshole who demands that I give him a cell# to prove I am real. Why are these idiots so maladjusted socially? Is it my age they don't respect? Or is it my behavior (if so, then why are they on this site)? Or, are they simply afraid of a cute (not sexy -- someone said my pics were sexy and I bust out laughing), smart, sexually free young woman, and all they know to do is to lash out?

Or, am I being too sensitive?

Maybe I am too young and naive, but I want to be wooed (I love that word -- sounds so old-timey...hehehe), dammit, before I do the little slut thing!

Also, I don't want to go and meet people without getting a feel for them first. And I want to do it in e-mail first because I have had bad experiences giving up my cell# too readily (phone stalkers are a pain in the ass).

Parties are different -- there are lots of other people around, so I will just go for it ('it' being whatever I want to do). But meeting someone, even in a public place, is something I want to take my time with. I mean, if something goes wrong with a bunch of other people around, I can at least try to get them to help me. If I am alone with a sicko and something goes wrong, I am screwed, and not in a good way!

On the other hand, I grew up with a psychologist for one parent and a psychiatrist for the other (I bet you wonder why I am such a perv, eh?), and enough of that rubbed off on me that I know that my whole "parties are safer because there are more people around" idea is mainly rationalization of behavior I know to be dangerous but want to continue anyway. Still, it is what I believe, dammit, and I wish people would respect that enough to just refrain from sending stupid messages! UGH!

Okay, I need to calm down.

Oh, almost forgot the other lame ass e-mail. A guy sends a cock pic and brags about how long he is and how he will go deeper than anyone else ever has...blah...blah...blah...

I put in my profile that sex often hurts for me. One reason is that any cock over 6 or 7 inches may hit my cervix (depending on how the cock curves) and that hurts like fucking hell! Okay, so I blamed my discomfort mainly on tightness when I wrote my profile, but I didn't think it was very alluring to go into detail about all the ways sex might hurt me. I thought guys might just take the hint that it would likely be only or mainly oral if I were to hook up with them.

Okay, enough. I think maybe it is just me and I need to get a grip... sigh...

Well, I have to go. Wish me luck in English class. Based on my luck today, the cute guy will either have a serious girlfriend or be gay.

It doesn't matter -- I'll probably get hit by a bus today anyway

(A free BJ to the first guy to tell me the song and the band I paraphrased that line from. And no, I am not serious; that is a joke. J/K, ya know...)

(And yes, I am too young to know that song; it was on an album that came out four years before I was born. So, before you point that out to me and say, "aha -- this proves you are a fake because how else would you know about a punk song from the early 80s," consider that maybe, just maybe, my taste in music is retro... specifically, retro 80s and 90s punk and metal... )

Okay, enough bitching... I really have to go now...

toothysmile 50M
16514 posts
9/14/2005 1:34 pm

Damn Lil felatrix,
Have to run through my entire catalog to find that one. "bus today, huh?"...
Anyway your blog is mighty refreshing, I 'll make a habit of visiting.
Best of luck in English class, I 'm sure you 'll ace it.

Oh, and don't mind the nasty e-mails, even I got one last week!
Remember there 's 20 million people in here, so...

rm_wulf_70 46M
2 posts
9/14/2005 1:46 pm

Based on your profile and your blog viewed together, I think you are a fucking little tease. What you need, and what your father likely never gave you, is a good spanking.

rm_wulf_70 46M
2 posts
9/14/2005 1:51 pm

Oh, and I think our little tease bothced the quote. I believe the line should read, "I'll probably get hit by a car today anyway."

rm_gulmunthos 30M
105 posts
9/14/2005 2:00 pm

Well, as for giving out your cell phone number, it was good that you didnt because then asshat people can just bother you whenever they want. Oh boy! A guy was huge! yay for him *twirls a finger in the air* Yeah, im sure that every girl who can only really take a average sized cock will just be jumping at the opportunity to have their internal organs all scrambled around.
Ah well, I'm just rambling now.. but i dont know the song either >.>

Renofunone 62M

9/14/2005 10:34 pm

don't let anyone buffalo you you are doing great the way you want it and for anyone to give you greaf is because they are morons. you have a good time go at the pace you want. It may take a little time to weed out the garden but then you can harvest the best crops. Your pictures are cute not sexual but your profile is blatantly sexual and most guys are jerks when their blood rushes from one head to the other. Some of us really do apreciate you and like your style.

sbloverboy 37M

9/15/2005 3:56 am

i live at lake tahoe and i think it sucks your getting so many lame emails. all i can say is sorry, horny guys have no wit or class. im 26 and would love to have some safe wild times. i believe meeting n groups is always cool and anyone demanding phone numbers, demanding to meet or being forceful should be deleated asap. id love to actually chat with a sexy, yet smart girl. are you ever free? let me know

boarderofsnow01 34M

9/15/2005 4:26 pm

ur a cutie!

rm_gijam692 52M
1 post
9/20/2005 7:26 am

Hey stop responding to the jerks. then they will find others to bother. gijam692

rm_NWMNman7 34M

9/23/2005 10:43 pm

Hey there, you are definately a beautiful girl, I'd love to chat sometime. That is, if you're interested in chatting with a hopeless romantic.

rm_driftboy2005 47M

9/27/2005 9:55 am

i'm sorry for all the ish that you've been getting. i must admit though that you are a very attractive girl, which is enough to tempt any man to commit seriously stupid things. hope to get to know you sometime in the near future, and no, i'm not 36 but am 32. later and good luck in your english class.

ChestPetriHales 55M
1 post
9/29/2005 5:34 pm

You are a little cutie! I don't know if it is the smile or the jacket or what. If I ever get some time in Reno I would love to sweep you off your feet into a very romantic evening in the snow in a hot steaming jacuzzi.

trymesometime00 48M
3 posts
10/1/2005 1:13 pm

Don't give up yet. You have rules that you have set for yourself, and that's more than most people. It is important to know something about a person, or to get a feel for them, before meetng one-on-one. The mindless "let's do it now" is a warning to me. Sex is great, but there is a lot more to life. Just enjoy and be happy with yourself.

rm_Drill4Her 56M
1 post
10/2/2005 4:18 am

Walk Tall and carry a BIG STICK. The assholes will thin out easy this way.


10/3/2005 12:26 am

Stick 2 Ur guns girl, this experience should be what U want it to be–no compromises.

haughtforeyou 34M

10/7/2005 8:07 pm

Hey there,
I wouuld love to woo you. E-mailme if you are interested.

TJSnodster 33M
1 post
10/8/2005 3:56 am

Hi, I'm a guy also going to UNR and I thought I'd say hello.

It's too bad you haven't updated in so long.

toothysmile 50M
16514 posts
10/9/2005 11:06 am

Hello? Is anybody in here?... just kidding [/size1]

Brianisfree 44M
2 posts
11/30/2005 8:55 pm

Btw, it's suicide's an alternative, by suicidal tendencies.

Brianisfree 44M
2 posts
11/30/2005 9:00 pm

Hey, do you like old Black Flag or Misfits from when Henry Rollins and Glenn Danzig were the lead singers?

Lodgepole1957 59

12/7/2005 7:06 am

Believe it or not, most people ARE's unfortunate but it is just the way it is. Do try to not let the jerks out there eff up your head, if they do then, well they win.
WE don't want jerks to win, so look at them knowingly , smile, and walk away.
IF they persist in hounding/stalking you...well a tazer works!!
Good Luck with your education, including English.
ALWAYS be safe, no matter what deal you're are offered be 1000% sure of your safety and the people you are around...ALWAYS.
And that cute guy you're after may not be gay or have a girlfriend...he COULD just be shy and when he sees you he gets all flustered!!!
Don't know the quote, I'm more Metal than Punk.

rm_ehren123 36M
1 post
2/28/2006 5:29 pm

just wanted to comment about the sex hurting thing. most girls i am with are petite (horrible speller hehe) and if the person you are with is careful and takes thier time then you should be ok. if you are still uncomofortable then take charge and change the position. generally a fun one is to lay on your stomach and let him go from top. this frees you up do use a vibrator or finger which is kinda fun for both involoved. just a little fyi from a sensitive guy that pays attention to womens needs. its not all about how hard you can fuck (ok sometimes it is), but how good you make her feel that gets you a call back.

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