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I cannot seem to get AdultFriendFinder customer service to reply. I have requested that they change the gender designation from Couple to single. This is an account I had quite a while ago which I figured I would use again.
Back then, I was with a woman, a total of nine years, and we used AdultFriendFinder to find playmates. Well, that relationship turned into a three-way relationship with another woman. Well, to make the long story short, they fell for eachother and moved on together to start a life of their own. I wish them the best. Now, it would be wonderful to get AdultFriendFinder to fix the account. Good luck to me.
Since we all broke up back in April of 2005 I have dated quite a few women. Since July a woman I met on AdultFriendFinder has moved in with me. When we first began talking it appeared that we both agreed on everything and wanted the same things. Since then, I have found out that she is more interested in a regular relationship with me, regular sex, and a regular life. Although this is a wonderful thing that many people wish they could find, It leaves me a little numb.
First, I am not in love with her. But ending this would mean hurting her, and that I will not do. It is a conundrum of sorts, but one I must deal with gradually, gently, and honestly. I think it is possible to reach the person who exposed her desires to me in the beginning. It may be hard to do, but I am willing to do what I can.
Second, I am more of a two women woman. I love the poly life and love to love two women at once. They often challenge me physically, in bed, mentally, emotionally, and most importantly, they challenge me intellectually. In my last poly relationship one gal was 25, one was 30, and I was 40 at the time. The kissing was awesome, the loving was phenominal, but unfortunately their attention to honesty and communications was horrible. That pretty much ruined it for me.
I find myself wanting to make this relationship I am in work. But, to do so would mean I must turn my back on the kind of person I am. She is a wonderful person. Very loving, attentive, and kind. A truley nice person. But, and as terrible as this will sound, I need more.
I guess I will continue this blogging thing and in the next few days add more info about me, my life, my desires, and many other things.