ALONE  

letstryit4fun38 49F
146 posts
6/18/2006 6:21 pm

Last Read:
6/20/2006 11:44 pm

ALONE


ALONE I SIT IN MY ROOM
THINKING OF MY STOLEN CHILDHOOD
NOONE HEARD MY PAIN
NOONE ANSWERED MY CRIES
DOES HE REALIZE THE PAIN HE CAUSED
WHEN HE STOLE MY INNOCENCE
A CHILDHOOD FILLED WITH FEAR AND DESPPAIR
WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE TO BE THERE
CRYING INTO MY PILLOW LATE AT NIGHT
DOES ANYONE REALLY CARE
MY LIFE HAS BEEN TOTAL CHAOS
ALWAYS FULL OF MEMORIES
I WOULD LIKE TO FORGET
BUT I KNOW NO MATTER WHAT
THE PAIN WILL ALWAYS BE WITH ME

WELCOME TO MY WICKED BUT WONDERFUL WORLD!


timberwolf6972 44M

6/19/2006 9:35 am

You know that you can always talk to me about anything right? {=}


kissnlik 40F

6/19/2006 7:18 pm

I'm so sorry for what you went through. I to had taht same experience and have suffered for the last 21 years of my life with it. I suffer from cronic depression and a borderline personality because of this person. I'm so sorry.


rm_Ellenback 58F
966 posts
6/19/2006 7:41 pm

(((hugs)))

That's all I can say, hit too close to my life on that one, but I'm with you on it, hon.

Elle


Sweetpickles69 47F

6/19/2006 9:19 pm

Hang in there! I had this happen to me too. Made me feel like I didn't deserve love or a good man! It's funny how something that happened to you as a child, doesn't hit you til you're in your 30's!

Hugs,
Pickles

Peace,
Pickles


rm_chanda69 47F
418 posts
6/19/2006 9:21 pm

been there...
the pain doesnt go totally away, but sometimes receedes to an ache.
the further you go into healing, the less power the bastard(s) have over you, & one day, when they meet their maker, you can win. small consolation to the child inside, but the woman will understand. as many do here.
hugs gently...

XXXOOOXXX chanda

XXXOOOXXXchanda


sweetSinn2690
2943 posts
6/19/2006 9:43 pm

I have never been molested but...I have 2 daughters and that is my biggest fear ever, that someone will do this to them. Everytime I hear another story of some monster on the news or these shows...it enrages me. My heart goes out to you and I hope you have the means to find some counseling to try to work through all of this...you are a survivor. You really need to get some help so that it doesn't consume the entire rest of your life. You deserve to find some happiness of what's left. God Bless.


Oh WHATEVER BITCHES!


letstryit4fun38 49F

6/20/2006 4:39 am

THANKS EVERYONE FOR BEING SUPPORTIVE AND UNDERSTANDING. I GUESS I AM A SURVIVOR. BECAUSE I KNOW IT WASN'T MY FAULT. I DID NOTHING WRONG. I WAS THE CHILD AND HAD NO CONTROL OVER THE SITUATION.THE BIGGEST EFFECT FOR ME HAS BEEN THE ABILITY TO TRUST PEOPLE. BUT SOMETIMES I FIND THAT IN A RELATIONSHIP IT IS HARD FOR ME THINK THAT SOMEONE COULD REALLY LOVE ME. IT IS HARD NOT TO FEEL USED WHEN THINGS GO SOUR IN A RELATIONSHIP. BUT WITH FRIENDS LIKE ALL OF YOU, ESPECIALLY "TIMBERWOLF6972" I KNOW I WILL BE OK.

WELCOME TO MY WICKED BUT WONDERFUL WORLD!


JuicyBBW1001 54F

6/20/2006 5:49 pm

Hugsssssssssssss and anytime you need reassurance that your not alone stop over and read some of my stuff and others who have put it out there.

Juicy


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