Jealous and Greed  

ldftb1 35M
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5/7/2006 1:26 pm

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5/8/2006 2:17 am

Jealous and Greed

Me and goomah have grown quite close, i have seen her at least 2/3 times a week for the past 6 weeks now.

Naturally i feel like we are more than just fuck buddies now, i have actually stopped searching and content with having her and my g/f as well, its hard work trying to satisfy both not to talk about having other women as well. she tells she cares for me too which is nice, we have talked about the possibility of us not seeing each other anymore and how we would miss each other. she says she has kinda stooped looking too. But she did mention that she hated being the number 2 woman in my life, which made me feel bad.

There's a guy she met before me but he stood her up twice, now he asked to meet her today(sunday) but she wanted to see me also and said she would rather spend the day with me, i encouraged her to go so as not to sound like am being possessive, but she knows how i feel about her sleeping with other men (it would put me off her, am such a hypocrite as i have a girlfriend)I went to see her today then we left her house together, so she went to the meet and i went home.

I feel 2 ways about this relationship now, i sort of want her to go with another man, that way she sort of calls the whole thing off with me and i wont feel guilty about me having to do it, but then again i don't want to stop seeing her as i really like her and actually see her without fucking all the time, today i just sort of went to her house, played some PS games and slept (as i was tired and hadn't slept much) we didn't fuck, but did fuck last nite at my house.

Am kinda hoping she would really like this other guy and go and fuck him, which would automatically mean i ain't in the picture anymore, am so paranoid that i even feel like deleting her details from my contact list, she hasn't text or phoned me which i believe mean she's having a good time, i want her to go with the dude and not contact me again, but then i want her to myself.

Oh dear, got myself in a right pickle haven't I, maybe we should call it off so we wont get attached any further as am not willing to break up with my G/F. Am so greedy!

MissKittyNip26 106F

5/7/2006 2:09 pm

SIGH! Yes.. you have gotten yourself into quite a situation! And in my opinion, you're WRONG!! IF I were your girlfriend OR your goomah.. I would be SO hurt! I really feel bad for the goomah.. it makes me think back to when I had caught feelings for #8, which of course nothin' could come of us (other than just sex).. I felt SO bad. Oh well.. I don't know what to tell ya'. My suggestion would be to leave both them bitches and move to Louisiana...LOL! And trust me.. I'd fuck YOU so good, you wouldn't even remember how to spell goomah, much less want one!

ldftb1 replies on 5/8/2006 2:13 am:
am buying plane tickets right

she called me about 2 hours after i posted the blog, and told me she had a good time with him (which was nice), but she was like she still wants me etc(which was nice also), not sure how i feel though, am gonna not think about it and just goo with the flow.

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