OK my first shot at posting a blog  

ladysabrina66 50F
25 posts
3/17/2006 6:47 am

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3/25/2006 4:57 am

OK my first shot at posting a blog

Some days as I sit and think about my life, I wonder why some things happened like they did. Many times I had often blamed my mishaps on others. I was young and naive then. I carried grudges through life towards one person or another. I hated everyone and everything around me. I had a husband at the time which abused me in every way possible. He made me feel ugly, stupid, and scared all the time. I was pregnant with my 3rd son when the violence had gotten worse. Through this time, is when I began to make myself see that I wasn't the villian that he made me out to be. In fact, he was the one that had he problems, I just fed off them. The day that my spirit was broke was when my ex confronted my grandma and raised his hand to hit her. I jumped my pregnant little tail in between them and said," Hit me you Bastard, I am used to it, but you'd better not lay a hand on my grandma. You MFer she did nothing to you."

From that day on, I started standing up for myself and my children and my friends and family. No man was worth making me feel inferior to anyone. After all I was created in God's image like everyone else. God made me and God don't make junk. It was a lifes lesson learned. It was a hard lesson to deal with. I was scared thats for sure. I had mental and physical scars, too. But you know that in the end, given a chance to change the past there is no way I would. For you see if I would try to change the past, it would change the loving and caring person that i have become today. I think through hurt, you can change those feelings to ones of love and acceptance. You just need to want it and go for the brass ring and rise above the muck of the past. I did. Wanting to accept past or not, it has made me who I am today. I gentle, fun-loving, caring individual who wants to see no one hurting anymore.

Thanks for listening,

wantonwill 60M

3/17/2006 7:51 am

You go girl!

HeardLankaMalls 55M
2925 posts
3/17/2006 12:58 pm

Sometimes we have to go through some pretty tough times in the journey through life until we finally say "enough" and stand up for ourselves. Then we see that, contrary to what we might have thought, we are pretty special people in our own right. Hope you continue to grow on your journey.

Nice post by the way
Keep it up Sabrina

Hugs, C

rm_AnOddGirl 57F
3469 posts
3/17/2006 6:03 pm


Sometimes through adversity we are forced to grow. Such growing pains. Lessons we have to learn through trial. The idea is to do just as you did, grow, become stronger.

You Rock.


TouchFondleLick 55M

3/25/2006 1:52 am

Dear Lady,

You have endured so much pain and suffering - I'm sorry you had to. I believe you are a better person because of it but, comparatively that's a small reward still it made you who you are now. I hope you can completely heal yourself and leave those painful scarring memories behind. Sometimes we need to confront the pain in order for it to go away. Have you tried confronting your father or x?

Live every moment like it's your last!

Hope to get to know you more and chat with you!

Touching you

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