Post-traumatic Stress..  

laceteddy_2001 32F
60 posts
11/30/2005 11:14 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Post-traumatic Stress..

Hello everyone, sorry for the delay in posting as of late I must say there has been quite a bit going on in my neck of the woods..

Things don't seem to like going my way, do I have the combination to life wrong? Or maybe its all just a poker game, to see who's hand can be the worst?..

I found out the beginning of last week,that my dad's cancer was back, I needed a friend and he was there for me (yep, you guessed it, my roommate/ex). Well, until we got to talking a bit about him the night before, turns out he had a hot-time with some asian chick he had just met.. Yes.. that was the best thing to hear while my heart was torn out.. Please, Yes, drive that knife in and twist it just a little...

That week, work was horrid, and so was the time spent at the hospital worried about my dad.. come friday, my roommate and I went to the movies- things were going just fine.. come to find out I had annoyed him by squeezing his arm a couple of times during the movie.. (SORRY! I'm not a damned mind reader) When we got home, to say all hell broke loose would be an under-statement. I had made a joke, yeah maybe it was mis-placed and a bit vindictive, when he got a text and began to chuckle I stated" oooh one of your girly girls? " .. Tell me, would you be offended?

So, angry after he had told me that I was nothing but an annoyance, and pretty much not worth a damned to him.. and after his decision that there would be no more sex I went to the store, bought a home pt. and to my surprise it was positive, I threw it at him, angry a nd went to bed. the next couple of days were tensed, but pretty much not there.. The words that came from his mouth were simply that I Would probably miscarry and that it didn't matter..

A week later, on tuesday I went to the doctor. Turns out, I am five weeks along and soon to be a single-mother. who is going to want me now?

What are my options? not many if you ask me. . But, I am the one who did it to myself. I Suppose I can't go posting blame on anyone else.

I suppose " Who will save your souls, if you won't save your own". has a point eh'? ..

ByteChaser2 52M

12/1/2005 7:09 am

I suppose I could quote all the sage advice there is... Not gonna. Besides, it's a little late for all that anyway right?

You take your time, make your decision and if ya just need a little calm, give a shout. I'm usually always here...


rm_WolfBlut 48M

12/10/2005 3:04 pm

Alright Love, here it is. It has happened and now what do you do? You be the best damn mother you can be. It will be difficult, scary, heartbreaking and the best thing you have ever done or felt. I am a single father and been through it from the other genders side. I do feel for you that you will be walking this path alone. We all have strengths inside ourselves that we were not aware of until tested and I think you will do and be fine. GOOD Luck

rm_22MPlay2XS 37M
1 post
12/17/2005 1:40 am

A few years ago I found out, after a breakup, that I was going to be a dad. It was the last thing I had expected (she had stopped using birth control - information I could have used) and it completely turned my world upside down. The person I was, no longer exists. The person I am now is in every way superior.

I wish I could say it has been an easy path to walk. Truth be told, it has been the most difficult and life-altering thing that has ever happened to me. It has also forced more personal growth and achievement than I think I would have ever gotten otherwise. I wouldn't trade my son for the world, but I can remember what it was like before and how traumatic the experience was. It has been worth it.

I truly wish this culture were more accepting of situations like this, but I no longer give a fuck. People can hold to whatever ill-conceived prejudices they choose to. Fuck them.

Enough comiserating. People will still want you. Some may want you even more. A few assholes will weed themselves out of your dating pool, but that's a good thing, right?

It will take some time, but things will fall into place.

rm_spoons1961 55M
1 post
12/24/2005 6:05 am

you r going to be a great mom! there is nothing more sexy than a beautiful girl having a baby

CrimeLakedRamal 49M

1/10/2006 8:54 pm

ADOPTION! There is nothing wrong with doing that. You get to choose which family will adopt. That may be in the best interest of the baby. Think with your head, not your heart on this one.

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