Compartmentalization, what I learned from BYEMAN  

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9/14/2005 7:25 pm

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Compartmentalization, what I learned from BYEMAN


What purpose to the builder does a set of blueprints with out dimensions serve? It may give him a perspective of spaces realtive to one another. How ever with out a scale or dimensions he would be foolhardy to doing anything other than roll the prints up and slide them back into the tube.
I'm at a wonderfuly confusing time in my life. Grateful for the expereinces, acqauiantenaces and friends I have. I've comapartmentalized relationships and expereinces. There is the past life "old Testament" and the present life "New Testament" in my treasure chest. I sit here and intellectualize the processes. The praticality of such a practice. The documentation stored only in my mind. The promises of discretion being my motivator and defense.
My soul looks on with a jaundiced eye.
It's about privacy for me. Because of poor choices in the past I have been forced to expose my entrails enough. The obligation to faciliataors to "share", lest my tenuous freedom be revoked,has be fulfilled. Over. Along with my confessed weaknesses I gained strength. A spiritual and mental strength I never imagined I was capable of. It was a relief to no longer live by a deciet filled personal agenda. I came to grips with the fact that I was the one most decieved. To myself disloyal, dishonest, unforgiving and unloving. By acknowledging my conscience I felt my soul. My spiritualty was born.
My spirit guides my mind.
Fall is here and with it the onset of my SAD. Like a little kid I pout about the shorter days of sunlight.It's time to get back in the tanning booth, it worked last year. Welbutrin or any of it's cousins never did make me happy. Thanks to my Creator I gave up Threapists.They never had any answers. They just asked questions and handed out precriptions.
Living, loving, blogging and fucking are such great fun, especially with a tan.!

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