Screaming, trembling and NPR  

kokopelli_123 51M
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2/24/2006 2:40 pm

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Screaming, trembling and NPR


It's been 72 hours since I have consumed any nicotine. The habit is screaming out it's rage. My habit is grieving the loss of a life long friend. I have choosen not to feed it.
[heavenly_body39] told me there would be grief involved in this process. I know exactly how to handle grief. Sometimes it gets down to one fucking day at a time.

Last evening I layed on the sofa for a few hours trembling and vibrating inside and doing nothing except listening to NPR.

It's a tall order for a patinet motherfucker to do nothing and I am the farthest from that that you'll ever see.

The screaming continues.
It is very simple, it is addiction. I'm not saying it's easy. It's just simple.

Two nights ago I could smell tuplis in a vase three feet away. Four nights ago I doubt I could have sensed the aroma one foot away.

The screaming will eventually become a demanding roar. Let the roar begin, it can't kill me.

Now I can empathize with the addict.

I know the feeling of healing will eventually come.
It always has.

tillerbabe 55F

2/26/2006 12:57 am

Keep "centered" my friend and enjoying your new found senses!


kokopelli_123 51M

3/1/2006 3:27 pm

Heaven and Tiller thanx for the encouragement. It's been over eight days now and I'm getting accustomed to it.


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