Another Talk  

knomregnad 41M
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6/19/2006 8:10 am

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Another Talk


I managed to get Elaine to take a break from her "busy" day yesterday so I could talk to her about some things. Again... I didn't get anything out of her. It was more or less me telling her how I feel about things.

I didn't really say much as I have been trying to keep things short and to the point with her. I basically told her she needs to communicate (again) and she needs to stop treating me like shit. She has been much nicer to me lately, but she still has a habit of giving me shit for seemingly no reason. She agreed that I don't deserve the hell she gives me and she doesn't know why she does it.

That was one thing I got out of her. The other thing I got... She doesn't know if she wants to be married. The fucking broken record that is my life. Why am I holding on? I have been seeing some improvements in her. I have made some changes myself and feel very good about those changes, but that isn't making things any easier for me.

Perhaps I'm too optimistic. Maybe I'm letting a handful of good things cloud my vision to the point I can't see the inevitable doom of our relationship. I don't know how to act. I don't know how to react. It is hard to react to a situation that I have no information about.

I've dealt with it this long. I guess a little longer won't hurt.

CrashnBern 58F

6/20/2006 12:15 pm

probably nothing will change until someone adopts the good old "shit or get off the pot" attitude. good Luck I have been in that limbo twice in my life and I hope I never have to go through it again..


knomregnad 41M

6/21/2006 5:16 am

    Quoting CrashnBern:
    probably nothing will change until someone adopts the good old "shit or get off the pot" attitude. good Luck I have been in that limbo twice in my life and I hope I never have to go through it again..
I started getting that attitude a while ago and it made things worse. Yeah the limbo sucks, but it was much worse two months ago. I can wait it out a bit longer if things aren't going to be terrible.


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