Day Six - Bunnies and Ducks  

kneadingit 50M
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1/8/2006 12:55 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Day Six - Bunnies and Ducks

Okay, so...

Home alone.

No office. No wife. No kids. Just playoff football and my laptop.

Days like this are the perfect choice for, well, self-gratification. and therefore, understandably, the hardest when coping with self-denial. Having said that, I continue to resist the urge to pop up my favorite porn site. Beautiful women that are so horny that they have to take on multiple partners of both sexes will just have to wait for twenty-four more days.

I admit it. I like group activity. Is that wrong? A woman that is that sexually liberated, and that horny, has always been a huge turn-on for me - a fantasy of mine, although one I have never fulfilled. Not that I've had many opportunities to have group sex - the result, I suppose, of our culture overall, and more specifically, of a modest, church-going, midwest upbringing. But, even when the opportunity has arisen, fruition proved prohibitive. The one professional dancer (with whom I had some of the best no-strings-sex I have ever had) that said she would like to be with me and another woman was a great start. But, there was the small logistical problem of finding the other woman. That same woman would have been with me and another man. Not something I'm against - and granted, the prospective participant list swells undeniably. Yet, not quite as much of a turn-on for me. Somehow, the fantasy seems better than the real thing. Seems like there could be lots of problems - like having to wait your turn, or having another guy standing on your foot when trying to get a better angle, or the two women forgetting you are even there, or getting crabs.

In the picture, and in my mind, it always turns out exactly the way I want it to. But, I will wait. I must wait. One look at that, and I wouldn't need to masturbate to climax. I will just stick to my post here - the almost daily chronicle of my quest for a length of time without masturbation that has not occurred since my early teens, before I knew how to reach orgasm.

Luckily, this site doesn't present a great deal of challenge to my quest. I do not get e-mails. I do not get winks. But I do not take it personally, either - I do not even get profile views, so it is not as if I am being rejected after a thorough review of my qualifications. I am just invisible. In fact, I can say unequivocally that getting noticed on this site is harder than in real life. As I suspect any guy will tell you here, the e-door is not exactly being beaten down. I know, I know. I've heard that a picture makes a difference, but I wonder, boys, how many e-mails those of you with pictures are actually getting? And, if anyone were actually ever to read my profile, they would understand that I have a valid reason for not posting a pic, at least of any recognizable body parts like my face - which most women seem to prefer seeing over an erection. Although, I have to say that even without a valid reason, I doubt I would post my picture here. Don't those of you with pics out here worry that your mother or brother or boss or co-worker or minister is going to see your naked pictures out here?

At any rate, the only challenge to my self-celibacy, other than the occasional erection which beckons to be reckoned even without pornography, is the occasional WONDERFUL profile pic I see on the home page when I log in to post my daily blog - which has most likely been posted by a 24-year-old male employee of AdultFriendFinder.

I know, I know, I'm a cynic. But anyone who believes that all the pictures out here are authentic, well...I have some bad news for you. The Easter Bunny is really a duck.

tillerbabe 56F

1/8/2006 11:17 pm

I'm real. And HEY! I believe in the Easter Bunny!

tillerbabe 56F

1/9/2006 1:37 am

Sorry to interrupt:
Please respect this request:

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kneadingit 50M
23 posts
1/9/2006 12:37 pm

You are one, dear tiller, that I already KNEW to be real. But thanks for reading and responding.

I enjoy your blog.

kneadingit 50M
23 posts
1/9/2006 12:38 pm

Such a sad story - thanks for letting me know. No posts here on 1/11.

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