Perhaps! Perhaps! Perhaps!  

klbunny 45F
3122 posts
9/5/2006 12:39 pm

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Perhaps! Perhaps! Perhaps!

I just got back from dinner and drinks with some old college mates. We were in the States together and I recently hooked up with them after a 15 years absence. Actually they were more like my big brothers, always keeping an eye on me to make sure I didn't get into too much trouble!

I also just found out that one of the guys really liked me back then, but as I was already seeing someone, he kept his distance and didn't pursue his interest...until today!

He's doing well for himself; vice president of an international company, drives a nice car, has a house in the right part of town etc etc and yet he's still the same guy that I knew back then....low key, down to earth and just fun to be with.

He sat next to me at the bar in La Bodega, and as the evening progressed we got closer, both physically and mentally. We were having our own private conversations. One by one the rest of the gang left until it was just the two of us. He walked me to the car and after a prolonged goodbye, we kissed each other goodnight.

There was definitely something there; the chemistry was strong and I know he still carries a torch for me and physically I am attracted to him. It would have been easy to suggest that we go "somewhere else" and "talk" and a part of me was so close to saying it.

So what made me stop?? Unfortunately he's married and I have sworn off all married men as it usually gets messy and I don't need messy in my life right now!!

So here I am at 3am, getting ready to go to bed alone. Perhaps I think too much. Perhaps I should have just been reckless. Perhaps! But deep down I think I did the right thing....

Bunny xox

dickxon 44M
50 posts
9/6/2006 4:24 am

some said those who think too rational will never feel and experience what actually is love. Well, to certain extent, I personally do agree with that. If you set limitation and definition, be it you are trying to protect your self or no willing to enter into some messy situation, the passionate impact will never be as strong, and therefore, love would not be as enjoyable.

From your message, I think you are cool, rational, and you know what are you doing and heading to. You would not do anything that you feel or believe it will be out of your control, and I think that is one of the good ways to not get your self hurt...

Keep more postings come in, I do enjoy reading your message...

klbunny 45F

9/6/2006 4:45 am

dickson....thanks for your comments. Right now I would just rather be safe than sorry.

Its nice to know that you actually enjoy reading my posts....thanks!

Bunny xox

Sailor376 63M
2288 posts
9/6/2006 8:30 am

Hello Bunny,
So nice to meet you. I just read this first list of recent posts and what a wonderful, complex, delightful person.

Per this post,, IF you could release your inner self, and I suspect that you understand that phrase, you should have not had sex with him, you should have let fly and made love. A few hours only? Will you be alive a few hours from now? Leave as few regrets behind as you are able.

It feels like the key elements of like, love, and lust were all there. I think that IF that were indeed the case, you should have torn one off. I mean dis connect reality and love. "Do you smoke after sex? (Looking under the covers) Gee, I don't know. I never checked."

Per a previous post. Your great love, if things cannot be bent to suit, then maintain the friendship. Possibly the most valuable long term benefit of a relation is the friend part. Can it morf into something platonic, maybe not. But I suspect you don't wish it to be such. At a distance and can only scratch between the ears? You already have the best one third, the truly essential one third. Should your relation grow and prosper on that one third, what the hell are you doing apart? Then Fix it!

And lastly.... Your profile contains a blatant misrepresentation. Body type is listed as 'average'????? Like hell it is! More likely it should be listed as 'Spectacular'. And hair that makes my fingers twitch to hold a brush. Maybe a really nice natural bristle brush to finish and polish with a nice slow one hundred strokes. And yes,per another post, after a REALLY good orgasm the endorphins will sleep me certainly. The kindness in that case is a gentle 'There, there.' as you stroke my face and ease me back into the pillow. There are very real chemical reasons why men fall sleep after sex. And in your case, I have already learned, those that drop the hardest and fastest may indeed be the happy victims of your skills and attention. These are and can be compliments. An extreme orgasm produces an abundance of these calming neuro-transmitters. The evolutionary benefit to a mammal is the safe escape of the female to deliver and rear. In its most extreme case of the best orgasm with the woman I deeply loved I might not be able to walk to the bathroom. It can me much more than sleepy, more like a withdrawal of consciousness. Although the insensitivity to leave you with five security guards,, kick his butt once around the block for me.

I talk too much.

Here's to a never dispassionate friendship. A santee!


rm_mam552 49M

9/7/2006 3:36 am

Having been on both sides of that fence I have to say neither is a good place to be. You definetly did the right thing Bunny. There are available men out there and after reading you (posts) I think you are stronger person for it. Keep in touch with him and who knows what gold lays at the end of the rainbow. But don't forget to have fun along the way!!!

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