The dark spot,  

kissnlik 40F
295 posts
4/17/2006 6:26 pm

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6/19/2006 9:42 pm

The dark spot,


Okay, I'm going through a very dark time in my life. I often wonder if perhaps I'm driving myself crazy. I was written up at work today for wearing a small pin on button. No it wasn't an ordinary button. It happened to have a picture of a skeleton's hand flipping the bird. Seeing that I work in customer service I knew it was a bad idea but did it anyway. I also had my lap top with me and happened to be to be carrying it in a lap top bag that has a picture of a flaming "Stewie" (from family guy) head and big red letters that said "DAMN YOU ALL" on the front. I didn't get in trouble for that, only the pin. Anyways, I feel like I'm loosing my mind. I was starring at the bottle of Vicodin I was given by my doctor for back problems this morning and contemplating taking all 40 of them at the same time. I could have done it, but I didn't. My 3 year old daughter ran into the room and asked me for a kiss and hug. I hugged her and cried after she left the room. I couldn't believe I was actually contemplating suicide. I'm so selfish.

GoddessOfTheDawn 105F
11238 posts
4/23/2006 1:04 am


Sometimes things can get tough. You have a little blessing around you that can help you remind other times/days/needs. Thankfully you do.

I hope things will b better for you soonish.
And yes, I'm living the dark spot as well, read _susie's response again, it's a very good one!


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