kcbg707 31F
20 posts
5/6/2005 10:48 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm


It's been hard lately moving forward with this whole thing, everything that is with it, what it embodies. For a majority of my life it was drilled in to my head how people should act. That polygamous, casual relationships aren't ok. It's so hard to stray from that. Even though I grew up with very open parents who never made the topic of sex an issue and said that the act was wrong, but more what was appropriate in a relationship. Why do you need to share yourself with so many others?
In some weird way I like being torn by my thoughts because it forces me to think about what I really want to gain from this. I am seeing it as a learning experience. I don't know what it's going to teach me or exactly what I am trying to learn. All I know is that this is what I want to do and I no longer want to have to justify anything having to do with sexual desire, hunger, whatever you call it. So there's my piece in this matter. I'm going to do what I want and what I feel is coming to me most naturally at this time.


epd_pdx 43M
9 posts
5/6/2005 12:16 pm

... Wow ...

Deep thoughts. I feel some affinity for your comments, I expect that many of us experience similar feelings at certain points in our lifes.

I wish you well in your journey.


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