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3/17/2005 10:29 am
I tried to post this once before, but I hope this goes well.
I'm getting frustrated. I try to meet people on other sites but it's the same result. I met one person in person on this site, but it seems that we can only be friends. Not that it's a bad thing to hang out with people, but it seems that finding someone for more than friendship, such as one with benefits or a relationship, just isn't happening.
I met a woman off another site, talked for alot, met in person, came to her town and spent practically the whole weekend with her around New Years. It was nice, she was a couple of years older, so we both knew what we wanted and what we were looking for. We messaged each other about getting together again and that seemed to be good and was the plan. Then I called her about a week later after she shut down her profile. She told me that the man she mentioned she met before me, while we spent those 2 or 3 days together I might add, asked her to move to Illinois and marry him, and she said she would. She met him, mentioned that to me when we were together and liked him before me, wasn't too sure she wanted him for anything long term at that point. Funny how people change like a flag in the wind. I guess I had hoped that she would consider me and well, it just didn't happen. She didn't complain about the sex and even wrote a reference, but a last hurrah for her before she hit the alter was all that I was.I thought it would work with an older woman that was about 4 or 6 years older, but that doesn't seem to work for me. I don't feel my age, nor do I look it or slow down like others my age are trying to do.
I have chatted with women on this site, chatted a whole lot, but when it comes down to meeting in person someone who is real and has intentions of meeting someone else who is real, that rarely happens.
I am beginning to think that I am supposed to be alone and that the choice I made as a career has cost me. I never thought that I was incompatible with someone that matches up with me, no matter how long the relationship is or was. I think the woman that is for me just doesn't exist. But I keep hope that I am wrong, that I have to wait. But I have been waiting too long and drama with my life or others takes a backseat to all of this. I believe, oddly enough, that the one for me is out there won't be a small-time grifter, and meets the profile I listed. I hope she isn't already taken or occupied already.
So I post my thoughts for the day, knowing that this will probably never get read, but it gives me an outlet to vent in a way, though I am not whining. I hate whiners, not being one, but just confused at the way how people so many people on the internet are fakes. Game players are wannabes or hasbeens, and I am not going to be either. I wish more women on this site weren't the computer generated profiles with fake pictures placed on here to attract men and get their money.