number 2 updated  

jmanhas19 30M
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2/3/2006 1:18 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

number 2 updated


so, i went and saw a judge today and had the court date moved forward and was granted a subsitutional means of service, so now i can send it through registerd mail (and not have to risk arrest or death) so yah, that worked out pretty well, and its like, wow, idk, this whole thing has been a trip. part of me wants to do backflips the other part of me just wants to curl up into a ball and die. im closer to seeing my son then i've ever been, but he's still so far. i was just outside the house he was in, and i still couldnt see him. part of me wants to let myself hope that she'll bring him to court the other part of me knows she wont. as much as it hurts, i still want to hope that i'll see him. i dont know what i've done, but i havent ever seen my son, thats all i've wanted in the last year, but it hasnt happened. maybe im a chump because i let myself fall in love, cuz i let myself believe that she actually loved me, maybe in even more of chump because for the longest time i still expected things to just work out amicably. this probably isnt the sort of thing most ppl would read in a web blog, but whatever that stress in off my chest now, but yah, im good now.

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