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What the f%*k happened this weekend?
What the f%*k happened this weekend?
I get a phone call Friday night from a security company I've been trying to get into since Summer `03. They have overseas contracts in Iraq and Afghanistan, among other places, only hiring former military types with a sense of adventure. They emailed me prior to New Orleans and I threw my name in the hat but never heard from them again.
Did I mention the money? Lots of it overseas. Not quite the rate stateside. I'd LOVE to get away for a year, live on three hots and a cot with direct deposit, the first sixty $K is taxed, the last hundred isn't, get back in the shit again... I'm still in good condition and wouldn't be going anywhere I haven't already been, or done anything I haven't already done.
They wanted me in Houston to cover a series of evacuated hospitals with a crew..sidearms, round the clock surveillance, etc.. I'm game. Money is not bad, I just want to get my foot in the door and go back overseas. So I go: leaving Austin at midnight ( I was 70 miles west of San Antonio at 8pm when I got the call ) and drove into the hurricane. It actually was 75 mph until the loop, then it was 30 mph in high wind and driving rain.
The crew is a good one, for the most part. Former Special Forces. Former Marines. All combat vets. Good to compare stories. Funny stuff.
Hospital wasn't hit bad, minor damage. Routine stuff. Had an interesting experience Sunday as the ER wa reopening on a skeleton crew: I noticed a Mexican guy with a lady in a wheelchair outside one of the ER entrances. He couldn't speak English and she was semiconcious. I ran to the engineering department and got a cordless drill and removed the plywood covering the ER doors to get her out of the heat, then had to pry open the inner doors. The ER staff were a little miffed but accepted her, they weren't ready even for the target time three hours later, and it was still several hours before we even had a doctor on the floor. Engineering bitched at me and I bitched back. I stood by my decision, fuck their convenience.
Good thing, too...she was taken to ICU immediately. Her kidney dialysis was several days overdue. She almost died, but was treated and released in good shape Tuesday. The ER Direcor thanked me for the right decision. Shut up the critics.
Company director came thru with an inspection. He heard about the dialysis patient and said the hospital was really pleased..wants to keep me on for a while but I'm only interested in overseas assignments.
So I motor back Tuesday night. I log into AdultFriendFinder the following night.
I leave the house for the weekend and everybody's fighting. Broken hearts. Deleted blogs. Lots of hurt going around. Catcalls. Name-calling. Nasty emails. The tones of the blogs are changing. What happened to all the friendly people that I met a few months ago?
I don't take sides, as I told one of the parties involved. I can be a friend to all and try to heal everything, but I'm not going to perpetuate anything. There are some really good people on this site and their feelings are genuine. Some make decisions on emotions. Some get crushed.
Just like any other friendship. Ruined by expectations and promises. I totally understand wanting to help or wanting to love and being divided between two ( or more ) ...been there. I'm really sorry to see things go this way.
I expect to see a general warming again. Let's work to make that happen. You're all great people and I know nothing unfair was intended, ins spite of the fact that it already has.
This is a blog. Adult oriented. Therapeutic in nature. Sharing of ideas. An open forum.
No broken hearts. No hurt feelings. If you can't deliver, don't promise. No expectations. No illusions. No bullshitting. There are real people in here.
9/30/2005 6:01 pm
Since I haven't been blogging I guess I missed all of the drama. I don't do drama anyway. I am just here to read a few of the bloggers I like and then maybe post to my blog too. We are "Adults." If you don't like something or someone stay away.|
10/1/2005 4:31 pm
Thanks Ladies...and I enjoy our conversations. |
I think there was a lot of one-upmanship and a lot of egos were geting the better of the writers. I like a light blog, even playful banter at times, but there are times when problems are real and very serious. This site needs to be an arena for friends to meet, not a source of heartache for the visitors.
Thanks again for all the comments both of you have given to me.. I count you both as friends.
10/3/2005 7:01 am
Thanks for this post, Jim. |
Yes, tis true, I was caught, unfortunately, in the midst of one of the dramas, and tried to end the other between a few friends peacefully. I thought I was the queen of avoidance when it came to drama, but both instances disrupted my life completely because people I truly care about were involved. And they were hurt.
I learned I'm just as vulnerable as most. A shocking revelation I might add.
Yes, as hard as it is for some to fathom, there are real feelings and emotions often involved here. After all, we are real people and only human.